I am almost 30 years old and I live at home with my parents and grandmother. I do not have a job at the moment, nor can I find one. I have never had a girlfriend and I am a virgin. I cannot stand living here anymore it sucks. Everything I do is wrong and my parents treat me as if I am a teenager. Even when I go out they call me and ask where I am and what time I am coming home.
I have only been on one date in my life, that was setup by my cousin. It was a disaster, I could barely speak the poor girl. I felt so bad for her that she was a date with me.
Let's face it, I am never going to find a good enough job to move out of my parents house. I am never going to find that special someone to share love and life with. Who would want a 30 year old virgin jobless loser anyway?
I drop out of Community College, An the only jobs I have had were.
1. Cook at a Bingo game once a week in a school gym for 1 year.
2. Night stock at a grocery store for a month.
3. Replenishment associate at a retail art store for 9 months. Lost this job earier this year.
I don't any money to go back to school and I suck at taking test. Especially math test. I can do math. Just not on test. I wouldn't even know what to take.
My whole life has been spent having people yell at me. My parents, relatives, My teachers ( I was not a bad kid at all ), My boss's. Everyone just seems to yell at me. Random people on the street. I am very quiet shy person filled with anxiety. I get very nervous alot of time. When people yell at me I just want to cry, when I screw something and it's no big deal I just want to cry. I feel depressed alot of the time.
Life seems so overwhelming to me and I have no idea how I am going to make it in this world.
Sorry for the long post.