TrustNot
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On a daily basis I fear even going to school anymore because of how I feel people will feel about me. In younger school years (elementary) I socialized with everyone, not wondering what they were thinking about me or if they liked me, because I felt like how could some one not enjoy my company. Now in highschool I have trouble even going up to my group of friends when they have already formed a circle before i've met up with them, so I doubt them being my friends, and many times hope they don't see me so I can just pass by them.
Other ways I feel strange to everyone else are I know I can achieve success on academic level, but have purposely lowered my grade standards from university to college in grade 11 because I felt the people I worried about judging me were in university courses. Now in grade 12 I felt that this didn't help me in grade 11 so I took an on job course to interact with adults because I've felt they won't "judge" me. Now at this on job course I feel even more insecure then before, because the whole job is based on criticism to help me achieve better, and I feel like whenever I do something incorrectly I have gotten on my co-workers bad sides.
This is just one problem I face in daily life, but I feel since I've ruined my chances for college/university because of it, it is the most important thing I have to vent to people ( which I don't feel any of my problems are really too important).
Other ways I feel strange to everyone else are I know I can achieve success on academic level, but have purposely lowered my grade standards from university to college in grade 11 because I felt the people I worried about judging me were in university courses. Now in grade 12 I felt that this didn't help me in grade 11 so I took an on job course to interact with adults because I've felt they won't "judge" me. Now at this on job course I feel even more insecure then before, because the whole job is based on criticism to help me achieve better, and I feel like whenever I do something incorrectly I have gotten on my co-workers bad sides.
This is just one problem I face in daily life, but I feel since I've ruined my chances for college/university because of it, it is the most important thing I have to vent to people ( which I don't feel any of my problems are really too important).