Recent content by Ericisme

I don't know why, but I just don't like the thought of somebody I love, and loves me back, being with another guy before. Might be because I've never loved or been loved, but I know it'll be tough to get used to, for me. BTW, it's cuz I's a virgin too. I'd understand if neither were a virgin.

I'm tired of being alone...

Past 4 years of my life I have done nothin but watch TV, watch movies, play video games, and sit on the computer, I'm 18 now. Literally that though, I dropped out of high school then too, got not a single real life friend, only leave the house for counseling and junk like that. Now my mom got me...

Past 3 weeks I have gained 15 pounds, showered like 4 times, brushed my teeth like 4 times, changed clothes like 4 times, cut myself over a dozen times, lost my only friend(my fault) that I was really really close with(online), step dad lost his job(mom lost hers a few months ago), brother had a...

So what is y'alls sleeping schedule? What was the worst schedule you were ever on? :rolleyes: I'm currently on sleeping at 4AM and waking up at 1-2PM. I used to go have it around, sleeping at 11AM and waking at 9-10PM(10-12 hours of sleep :eek: ) for probably a year or so. But then I changed...

eh... I don't know what to do. I finally broke and told my mom everything today, she instantly goes to the crisis hotline and say I should go to a mental hospital place... cuz I said I wanted to die and such... But instead I've got an appointment tomorrow morning... I don't know what to do... I...

This friend of mine told me about these schools for mentally ill people, including social anxiety and even just depression. They are both schools to get your diploma and they help you with your problem, you actually live at them too. It sounds soo nice at the thought of living at a school place...

The past some months now I've slowly posted my pictures in more and more places. It started with only 1 person seeing a picture of me, then after a while of seeing myself sometimes in pictures I finally posted one on my sites like this. So now I see myself everytime when I come here. Then I...

Who here has an online relationship? What do you think about it so far?

Recently I've really wanted to move out of here, I live with my mom, step dad, and brother. They really don't help me in many ways, just with giving me food and a place to live. I get SSI but I doubt I'd have enough to live on my own with it. Also, I don't know if I'd actually wanna live by...

Is it just me or do our junk ruin it for us? I'm really getting annoyed about some of the random bad thoughts I get when I'm talking with this girl I like(online), sure I can control saying things, but I just hate thinking of her like that! They have operations where they make it so SPECIAL...

So does anybody here have a fantasy land? Either through video games, playing some game with themselves, or anyother way that's possible to have a fantasy land. A place where they get to be somebody else, pretend to be somebody else, or pretend you have somebody to talk with. I myself like to...

Ok so a lot of people develop SP in their teens, so do you guys still feel as if your a teen? I feel as if my life just stopped when SP came, I still feel 15, I didn't learn anything afterwards, it's just like 3 years of sleeping, nothing happened at all, not even much dreaming(1 monthly). So...

Ok, so I noticed their is people that will leave the house daily, have friends,boy\girlfriend or a wife\husband, in college, and them things. Then their are people that have none of that and rarely leave the house. Which one are you? Is their seperate names for them or what? I would...

Ok, so I am planning on getting my GED in a few months, but then I realized this. Physical symptoms often accompanying social anxiety disorder include excessive blushing(check), sweating (check), trembling(double check), palpitations, nausea, stammering(double check), and panic attacks(not yet)...