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last night i smoked dope for the first time in 7 months even though promising myself then not too smoke it again becaause i thought it was messing me up. Anyway my reaction too it was sickening i felt deeply depressed with flashbacks to just everyday things from the last few months that made me...

Im thinking of doing something horrific to myself live on the internet and make sure all my family sees it as some kind of punishment. The longer im clean from drugs the more fucked in the head i realize i am and hopeless it is and how alienated i am from everyone and i half blame my family. I...

im so fuckin sick of this, shitting myself when any1 comes near 2 me, driving me mad, councellers so blazee"oh you've just gotta change youre thinking patterns". I HAVE NO FUCKING CONTROL!!!!! WHY AM I SO FUCKIN FUCKING SCARED OF PEOPLE. ICANT TAKE IT. i feel like a piece of butchered meat

bashing your head on the pavementshould produce similar effects to xanax: memory loss, sedation, confusion, dizziness with some additional pain :lol: no doctor in NZ will give me benzo's and my crap is nearly driving me psychotic so im considering head injury induced relaxation Iposted that...

Who finds music in places like shops and malls, even peoples homes makes you even more uncomfortable, just another stimulus to freak you out more. For me usually anything poppish or hip hop and especially dance/techno. Bizzarely enough heavy metal and classical calms :roll:

Who here would say your more uncomfortable experiences of socialising which are meant 2 be anxiety feel more like shock. Sometimes in my worst moments it feels almost identical 2 how ive felt after a car accident or being quite badly hurt, you know that feeling of stunned shock being unable 2...

the most bizarre feeling came over me last weekend, i was at a family reunion at my aunties holiday home. Now we were meant to be havin dinner together and just chatting and having a good time but i simply wasnt capable of it. Just before i arrived i started to feel tense and jittery and could...