Recent content by LonelyLeaf

Hey, I was at a party today and this guy I really like gave me a handshake, well he gave everyone sitting at the table...I have a crush on him really and I don't think I'll ever wash that hand again..kidding..this sounds juvenile I know, I'm too old for this but I can't really help myself :D...

On a day to day basis, what are you doing to overcome this disease? Is it all talk and no action? Are you reading self-help books? Are you 'out there' confronting your fears on a regular basis? What have you tried until now? And more importantly, do you really WANT to overcome SA? Do you...

The Outcast He’s the guy on 52nd Street Knees bent; a sullen face What has he known of, but deceit? Dishonor and disgrace He’s the guy on 52nd Street Eyes down; a hand extended What has he known of, but defeat? A death; unattended

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An old aquaintance of mine asked me a few months back to come and visit him and his girlfriend and I said I would think about it..well here's the deal: I'm scared %&/% about seeing him, because we haven't seen each other for years and because of my SA I'm VERY nervous about his reaction and...

I was just skimming through book I have of archaic and vanishing English words..did you know to 'Houstonize' used to mean to 'beat up a Congressman'?, an allusion to a beating administered by a certain Sam Houston to fellow Representative William Stanberry on April 13, 1832..you learn something...

I'm looking for books and ecspecially videos dealing with people who have social anxiety..personal stories and stuff..

..but I am seriously wishing I was dead! :cry: I am so confused about everything, about my life, about my past actions, about me..I just can't figure it out! I give up! I give up! I'm such a mess I don't even know where to begin..there are just so many things wrong with me! I've tried and tried...

I'm relatively ok with my family, but when it comes to strangers or people I know only superficially my social skills break down...

Today my feelings were like this.. MORNING :twisted: :evil: 8O :x :cry: :( :o :) :D :P :lol: :P :D :) :o :( :cry: :x 8O :evil: :twisted: AFTERNOON No, not really I just wanted to try that out..but some days I do feel like that, my mood swings from...

THE NIGHT GROWS OLD The night grows old, As darkness rolls, Its night-time veil again. My bloodless vein, Emotional drain, Cold diffusions of pain, This bane of my life! Do you like... :?:

I feel so guilty! Here's the story (if you wanna listen that is..) I used to have a friend or two, go to high school, and have a couple of past-time activities too...then I made some bad choices in life and the deal is I don't know exactly why! I gave up on everything (though I did manage to...

The things is I've bought the tickets the other day thinking I could just go and stay a few hours and then be off again, but now I'm having second thoughts...last time I went to a party I just sat there most of the time staring really...I don't really feel like going but It'll look odd if I...

Every sentence my parents utter they laugh afterwards...all the time..they cannot speak a normal sentence without laughing! It bothers me because I do not know whether it's me they are laughing at or what? Do you experience this with your parents? Also I've noticed people like criticizing...

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