Hi there,
Just thought i'd vent a little.
Well Im 25 and have had HH since 20 which was right into my 3rd year in college when things were just picking up for me socially and otherwise. I used to play the guitar and drums when I joined college and within 1st year got into the college band. We guys were picking up and getting famous. All along my HH getting worse(Like i remember , during the jams, exchanging guitars with another guy and they would spend 2 mins scrubbing it down with a towel.. i just thought i was little more prone to sweat than others). Had my share of crushes and girls being interested in me.. but as I got into 3rd year it got really bad.. i retracted into a shell and quit the band. Stopped playing guitar as it was HELL to play in front of people . I would start to sweat from my hands and eventually get so embarassed that my face would turn cherry red and ill be dripping sweat from my face. So a couple of those experiences and Ive got a phobia you can say to playing guitar(except maybe sitting alone in my room in the wee hours of the night).
I have landed a dream job after completion of my college, as an airline pilot, something most would kill for. Had a real challenge getting thru my training(I fly with gloves and am a butt of many jokes in the company) but that hasn't detered me from acheiving my goals in life. I have terrible bouts of depression because I never am able to express myself socially(be it with collegues or women) expect maybe with a few close friends, mostly male. Only a handful know of my condition, but I still walk on.
I read on these forums people talking about discussing your problem with you near and dear ones, but I for some strange reason can never get myself to do that. I feel like Im showing myself as a weakling. I dont want anyones sympathy, in fact thats the worst thing I could ask for(you know people going awwww when you have a bad sweaty day.. ughhh). So im in a catch 22 most of the times.
ETS is the only thing left(I have only tried external applicants, and will never touch drugs with a 10 foot pole). My parents have a good point against ETS.. they say anything thats coming and messing with a bunch of nerves in your body is not worth the risk. I agree, id rather be sweaty and depressed than paralysed and dependent(at least its only my problem
for now). Going for a good workout works wonders for my confidence and reduces my sweating to some extent. Other things I have noticed about my sweating is it reduces as you stay up late(basically connected to your circadian low I guess, in other words when the body processes begin to slow). Of course, the common observation of it coming down with alcohol consumtion(probably to do with drop in anxiety levels). I am still experimenting with types of food and their effect as this I believe is a big contributor. Will update you all as and when I do get some concrete data. Also coming out of a major panic attack to do with HH, makes you sweat free for a good amount of time there after lol.
HH has ****ed up my life in every possible way. Lot of people contemplate if its all in the mind, but when i read these posts its like you see the same identical symptoms and situations over and over again! I just cant believe that im nuts in the head and thats why this happens. The other way around might be true to a certain extent.
Hoping for an end to this tunnel some day. Keep up the faith my fellow sufferers.
All I can say is continue to do all the things you want to .. life's real short! (either ways it couldn't get worse than it already is)
Cheers.