My moods are darkening by the day

My mood is darkening by the day. I have barely spoken a word since Friday. I have no desire to initiate conversation, and i only really speak if someone asks me something, i just feel so drained of energy and i have no zest. Last night my mum and grandmother dragged me out for a meal at a local Hotel restaurant, and i sort of sat there like a zombie feeling unreal as if i wasn't really there. I feel numb, personality less, dull, lifeless. I was actualy considering taking all of my meds last night but i am rational enough to not do a stupid thing like that.

Paxil speedball.

Hey Recluse. I'm sorry you feel that way. If time has taught me anything, social anxiety has its high and low points. Sounds like you're having a real low point, but look on the bright side. You'll bounce back soon! =). A big hug until you do!

i will open my lament thread. It is much easier on the constitution.

I wonder does this sp sheisse can evolve without 'ups' and 'downs' (popularly called bipolar)?