My Soul Hurts
There's something broken in my soul cause everytime I try -and you bet I do with all my heart- to socialize there's someone treating me like I'm a stupid. I already know that I'm shy, too sensitive and too insecure. What is the reason why people keep remembering me that all the time?
I feel so bad about being shy! I have such bad times everytime I remember my life is shit because of my lack of self confidence! This hurts so much! Why is people so obsessionated with my shyness??
I have this problem right now with two work mates... and I just don't know what to do. They make me feel so stupid and childish! They keep joking at me, laughing aloud, talking rude, talking about dirty/sexual stuff, making me go red-faced, making me go ashamed, making everyone arround notice that I'm shy and insecure... I know they don't mean it and it's not their fault if I'm shy and insecure but you know...that just doesn't help me.
I'm thinking about the way to stop this somehow. But fighting other's takes me so much energy!
I hope I'll be able to avoid those two girls and go with other persons in the company who treat me more seriously.