Nightflowerew
Member
Hello.
I guess that I meant shy to post an introduction. I have social anxiety, since childhood. Struggled growing up. Pressured into having friends and boyfriends. I couldn't get those things and family were very disappointed. They thought I hated people and I didn't have any friends because I must've been a "nasty anti social girl". Looking back on this, no I wasn't. I was just scared of people and didn't know how to interact with them.
Over time, never made a single friend at all. The only friends I have are from off the internet. My relatives don't think much of me. Never had a good relationship with people in general, always bullied.
I struggle now as a mom going out just dealing with people outside. I'm trying hard to act normal all the time but everyone senses that and look at me funny. The shop I regularly go to for basics have staff that have an opinion of me. I went into this place the other night and handed over my library card by accident, same colour as my points card. It's funny yes but a total stranger nearby laughed and spat food, which I thought was so rude.
Not only this but lots of people stare at me. I often feel gang stalked because of the way people behave and getting scared to go out sometimes. Whole summer holidays so far is me just at home and doing shopping or paying bills. Too scared to go off anywhere. I don't like holidays because I don't like meeting new people.
Anyway enough of my ranting.
Nice to be here and hope I can post on here in future.
I guess that I meant shy to post an introduction. I have social anxiety, since childhood. Struggled growing up. Pressured into having friends and boyfriends. I couldn't get those things and family were very disappointed. They thought I hated people and I didn't have any friends because I must've been a "nasty anti social girl". Looking back on this, no I wasn't. I was just scared of people and didn't know how to interact with them.
Over time, never made a single friend at all. The only friends I have are from off the internet. My relatives don't think much of me. Never had a good relationship with people in general, always bullied.
I struggle now as a mom going out just dealing with people outside. I'm trying hard to act normal all the time but everyone senses that and look at me funny. The shop I regularly go to for basics have staff that have an opinion of me. I went into this place the other night and handed over my library card by accident, same colour as my points card. It's funny yes but a total stranger nearby laughed and spat food, which I thought was so rude.
Not only this but lots of people stare at me. I often feel gang stalked because of the way people behave and getting scared to go out sometimes. Whole summer holidays so far is me just at home and doing shopping or paying bills. Too scared to go off anywhere. I don't like holidays because I don't like meeting new people.
Anyway enough of my ranting.
Nice to be here and hope I can post on here in future.
welcome to SPW.
