Not myself lately

dannyboy65

Well-known member
I really haven't been myself lately it's stressing everyone I'm close with. When my parents talk to me I get annoyed quickly. I've been playing more video games then I usually have. I also don't take in everything people say. I feel terrible for putting all this stress on people especially my girlfriend who is still being more caring then ever but I've been nothing but difficult for her. Like she told me 3 times she works all weekend and I forgot all 3 times. I feel pathetic, I love talking to her and listening its just been hell in my head for a few days now.

The voices in my head are starting to come back. I'm starting to see stuff that isn't there. I lose focus all of the time, I can't process half of the stuff that I am told or that I see. The other day my girlfriend came over to see me and I honestly forgot how I even got to her vehicle. I can't sleep anymore, I just have constant nightmares. I'm scared I'll lose everything because of this illness I feel ashamed for even having this illness. I feel ashamed for having to take medications. I just want to be normal again before I lose everything :( :kickingmyself: I know my girlfriend won't leave me I know that it's just the voices they lie to me, they scream at me, they are never quiet anymore........
 

planetweirdo

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Maybe you are stressing too much over something? Do you think that stress could be the reason the things are getting worst and the voices are coming back? Are you worrying too much about stressing out others, and putting too much stress on yourself?

I'm scared I'll lose everything because of this illness I feel ashamed for even having this illness. I feel ashamed for having to take medications. I just want to be normal again before I lose everything :( :kickingmyself: I know my girlfriend won't leave me I know that it's just the voices they lie to me, they scream at me, they are never quiet anymore........

You should not be ashamed of having your illness, you didn't choose to have your illness on purpose and it is not your fault. All you came do is try your best to cope with it.
 
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FountainandFairfax

in a VAN down by the RIVER
It sounds trite, but the best way to lose someone is to worry about losing them. You're still the guy she loved at the start, warts and all. Treat that whole bundle of doubt like a grenade and hurl it out of sight, because a guy who's hung up on being dumped is a huge attraction killer to most girls.

You're never going to be normal, and you'll likely always be on meds, it's just something you have to live with. But try to see it as a burden that you can bear, one that you're worthy of because you're a strong person. It's definitely not fair, but at the same time, you're not being punished.

And please talk to your therapist/doctor about the resurgence of your symptoms, you have a medical condition that needs to be monitored, so be sure to keep your doctors in the loop. You've come a long way, and you're up to this challenge. You'll be a better man for having endured it. :thumbup:

If any of that sounded harsh, just remember that I have my own issues and whatever I say comes from a place of hard-earned experience and a wish for you to have the best life that you can.
 
Maybe you are stressing too much over something? Do you think that stress could be the reason the things are getting worst and the voices are coming back? Are you worrying too much about stressing out others, and putting too much stress on yourself?
I'd say it may be a combination of stress and lacking sleep. Last year was hearing voices for a few days. It was really bad, as i was absolutely convinced there were people stalking me around my house with a gun, and were going to kill me. And so i ended up calling the police a few times ... (etc, etc). I was stressed/anxious to the hilt (due to external events & esp my reactions/interpretations to such), not sleeping hardly at all for a few days, & was on a new medication (sleeping pill).

Just wondering, do you have scitzophrenia? (is that the right term?)

And what else has changed in the last few days or week/so?
 

dannyboy65

Well-known member
I'd say it may be a combination of stress and lacking sleep. Last year was hearing voices for a few days. It was really bad, as i was absolutely convinced there were people stalking me around my house with a gun, and were going to kill me. And so i ended up calling the police a few times ... (etc, etc). I was stressed/anxious to the hilt (due to external events & esp my reactions/interpretations to such), not sleeping hardly at all for a few days, & was on a new medication (sleeping pill).

Just wondering, do you have scitzophrenia? (is that the right term?)

And what else has changed in the last few days or week/so?

I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia when I was admitted into the hospital 3 years ago. I'm so confused with every emotion that goes through my mind. I feel like I'm always being watched, I feel like a pathetic human being.
 

Xion

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You should not be ashamed of your illness, bro.. You didn't choose it.. I also have some illness that I keep secret from everyone..
 
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