Falkor
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Hey,
I know I posted things like this before, but It's a complete struggle.
When I look into the mirror, I see an ugly person with ugly features.
It's getting worse, I don't know what to do anymore because every time I look at myself, I would consider myself being extreme disgusting.
I hate my skin and skin colour, and the purple area below my eyes.
People told me I'm ugly like so many times, online people tell me I look pretty good, well it's because my camera has a bright light effect, that's all.
I'm ugly in real life, for me it's a fact, for others, family and friends tell me I look good, also people told me I'm really ugly.. I started to believe them.
Now I have this day routine, of checking multiple times (like too many times) a day to check if my reflexion is alright, I check every side of my body and face, left face I look alright, right side of the face , it's just awful.
I look at myself with super zoom in Glasses, not literally, just what they tell me, and I see too much, but I know this is visible, because I see it myself?
It's destroying my life, I feel like not going to an appointment tomorrow because I'm overly obsessed about this, I see myself walking there and people looking down on me ''because of my looks''. because this has been reality in my life, so far, when I got bullied a looong time.
It's controlling my life, and I need to get over it, but since I'm 12 years old, I found myself uglier than the rest i never wanted to be on photographs, now I do make photographs, but still need to be convinced if I look alright, and most of them I just delete and never want to look at again, I didn't care much back then, but since people went rude and saying those things right in my face, I cannot stop thinking about it, and it is a real ilness.
I know I posted things like this before, but It's a complete struggle.
When I look into the mirror, I see an ugly person with ugly features.
It's getting worse, I don't know what to do anymore because every time I look at myself, I would consider myself being extreme disgusting.
I hate my skin and skin colour, and the purple area below my eyes.
People told me I'm ugly like so many times, online people tell me I look pretty good, well it's because my camera has a bright light effect, that's all.
I'm ugly in real life, for me it's a fact, for others, family and friends tell me I look good, also people told me I'm really ugly.. I started to believe them.
Now I have this day routine, of checking multiple times (like too many times) a day to check if my reflexion is alright, I check every side of my body and face, left face I look alright, right side of the face , it's just awful.
I look at myself with super zoom in Glasses, not literally, just what they tell me, and I see too much, but I know this is visible, because I see it myself?
It's destroying my life, I feel like not going to an appointment tomorrow because I'm overly obsessed about this, I see myself walking there and people looking down on me ''because of my looks''. because this has been reality in my life, so far, when I got bullied a looong time.
It's controlling my life, and I need to get over it, but since I'm 12 years old, I found myself uglier than the rest i never wanted to be on photographs, now I do make photographs, but still need to be convinced if I look alright, and most of them I just delete and never want to look at again, I didn't care much back then, but since people went rude and saying those things right in my face, I cannot stop thinking about it, and it is a real ilness.
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