Overcame one problem, now onto the next!

Well first off the good news. For the past 5 summers I had to move into a campground in order to work in the area where I would just walk to work. Every year I went something terrible has happened to me, it's all bad memories down there. This summer was not easy, I barely got to see my girlfriend and little boy. I also was an outcast at work, and was being picked on by one of my bosses. On top of that it has been problem after problem. The thing though is usually I completely break down. But for the first time I didn't break down, I faced all of my fears and took every problem head on. Sure sometimes it was hard decisions, or sometimes I had to hear the bad to get the good, but I made it. My girlfriend was a big help she called me every night, and tried her best to see me when she could. The thing is I finally beat my hell, and in the end I wasn't worried about being there anymore. I truly felt that, even though this summer was complete crap, I proved to myself I could do it and that my relationship can go through the worst and we would still stay.

The bad news though is that after thinking I beat my anxiety, it comes back to haunt me. I can't sleep, and I hardly eat. I've been taking my medication and I've been staying positive, but it still strikes. For instance I get random anxiety attacks, no warnings and no signs of why. My girlfriend thinks it could be all my current stress and she assures me I won't go through this alone. On top of that she also pointed out how I start to feel sick after I eat. I will eat then I will excuse myself to walk so I don't puke because I feel so nasty after I eat. Sleep is also hard for me to get currently it's almost 1 am and I'm still not tired. My mind doesn't stop thinking about everything.

But all in all I beat one problem now I need to beat the next problem. I have to focus on the small victories. I know I'm not going through all of this alone to which helps a lot.

What an awesome girlfriend you have! If only everyone with social anxiety had the support system that you do, I'll be there would be a lot fewer suicides in the world. Good luck in battling your problems, I hope you continue to get better. It sounds like you at least have a huge advantage and ally in your fight!

I read that this is supposed to happen and that you have to persist when the anxiety comes back in beating it. It's the neural network of your mind fighting to stay alive because it thinks you still need SA, but you know you don't so you simply have to keep facing fears and it will go away. Not that I have any success at this, but the relapses are normal and actually signs that you're close to beating it. Just stay at it brother

You're an inspiration, dannyboy65!

Small victories indeed, dannyboy. To people like us with anxiety, there's nothing small about them. Quite a feat, I say. Keep it up! Good luck.