Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

Sleeping for about 3-4 hours a night for the past couple years.

It's like my own personal "Great Depression".

I wish there was a world with no first cousins who use an opportunity to sneer discreetly behind your back and sometimes to your face about the things you haven't done compared to what the cultural norms are. And thus make you feel like rubbish. I would rather have physical pain of some sort than to sit in a room with them for 2/3 hours and wait for them to start jabbing away at me, metaphorically speaking.

Louco said:

Sounds good. I'm also near 30 but I see an old man.

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PugofCrydee said:

I looked in the mirror this morning ad saw an ugly piece of s**t.

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I think the problem here is that you guys have been looking in my mirror. Go get your own.

I've been seeing my long-dead uncle a lot lately. It's disturbing.

Rawz said:

If only I was rich.

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What then? Would it change your life or merely present different opportunities for change?

BlueDays said:

The ability to successfully communicate to any new person/people I have just met seems to be deteriorating the older I get.

It has never been good, but at least I used to not stumble over my words or sentences several times - each sentence - of a paragraph of speech, which is happening with more frequency now. :kickingmyself:

Then it just gets worse if I continue to speak because of the cognitive-mess-milkshake that the embarrassment is making of my thought processes.

In the past I have had the ability to think of something to distract my mind in a situation of stumbling over my words and prevent my brain turning into a thought-milkshake, but I can't even manage that anymore. :sad:

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I haven't met anyone new (in person) for a very long time, but judging by how the last time went, I doubt I'd do any better than you. Milkshakes for everybody!

I need to get out and meet with people—doctors, lawyers, professional types who know their business and would likely expect me to know mine—and I don't think my incoherent stammering will make a very good impression. One more reason to avoid acting like a responsible adult.

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What then? Would it change your life or merely present different opportunities for change?

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Well unless I gave all my money away it would of course change my life. I hate living where I currently live and I am unable to work enough/earn enough money to leave. I think it would be awesome to have my own house.

If you think about it, lollipops and hard candy are disgusting because you're dissolving the candy with your saliva and then slurping up the candy-flavored saliva puddle in your mouth. I mean, I know we swallow spit all day long, but eating other foods doesn't generally work the same way.

think paw-sitive

If only scoring a girl were that easy haha!

[From 2:30 to 2:44]
It's a pokémon gold parody

https://youtu.be/yvML_PMr6L4?t=2m30s

Cousin and Brother:
''Pokemon Go is for such nerds. Walking around wasting time. No life idiots.''
''...Let's go fishing.''

WHAT?!! Oh man, these people tire me. They really do.

Kinda hate learning how to do things on ma own, simply because I can never be sure that I'm following the instructions correctly. Ah wish ah wus more adept at learning things quickly. :sad:

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After a stressful day, I really need a good laugh. :bigsmile:

Thanks Hoppy. :thumbup:

Being flaky as ever. Someone finally asks me to hang out and I make up some bs about being busy this weekend. Dont know what Im so worried about.

Well, shit. mg:

Looked under the kitchen sink this morning and discovered that what I thought was just a little leak up top is also a big leak down below. Lotsa water, lotsa mold, and a little bit of slime as well. I cleaned it up as best as I could and sprayed a ton of bleach in there to kill the mold, but I'm afraid it's not going to be enough.

Once it dries out in there, I'll see if I can find out where the leak is and if I can fix it myself. I may have to take the cabinet apart as well, to see if there's any damage underneath. If I can't fix the faucet, I may be able to find a suitable replacement at Home Depot. That would probably be the best course of action anyway, rather than trying to repair this cheap piece of crap. I've fixed it before, but this time I suspect it's had it.

Of course, were I a normal, healthy, non-****ed-up, adult human being with passable housekeeping skills and some measure of social aptitude, I could just call the office and have them send the maintenance goons around to fix it for free. That's what I'm supposed to do. However, being me—and what a fine idea that's turned out to be! h:—I would rather pay for the parts and do the job myself than call them. I can't stand having those slack-jawed apes in my apartment, and I certainly don't want anyone from this looney-tunes organization poking their nose in my business.

I wasn't planning to go out today, but maybe that's what I'll have to do. Got a few more things to look for there anyway. For now, though, the kitchen (and the tub) will remain cluttered with under-sink stuff, and the dishes will go unwashed for another day. Thanks, Life. I needed one more thing. :kickingmyself:

Hello guys, I need some advice. I've been getting ready to go to my local community college to eventually transfer to a four year university for environmental studies. I've completed my placement tests and online orientation etc. I've developed this social anxiety pretty recently. I'd say I've had it for about a year now. But, I looked at a video on cognitive behavioral therapy, and it made the point that for people who have trouble controlling their emotions, little things make you hopeless/angry at everyone/yourself. "These thoughts and feelings completely bypass their core principles and beliefs and how they truly feel because they don't know how to get in touch with how they truly feel". This struck me as very true. I think I do often lose touch with how I truly feel about things (trying to do the "right" thing) and this often leads me to make decisions that I immediately regret, so if I'm still in this frame of mind, does it make sense to start college to pursue something that I'm not sure I want? I'm starting therapy soon, but should I wait until afterwards? I dropped out of another college in part because of my anxiety so should I avoid risking that happening again, or should I just risk it? Thanks to anyone who can offer any advice.

On a similar note..

Oversensitivity (=trouble controlling emotions)
. . leads to
SA/SP
. . leads to
Avoidance
. . leads to
Having no life (or missing out on life)

It's just after six in the morning and time to get up. I don't think I've slept all night, just lain awake watching my world (and my desire to continue to live in it) crumble and rot inside my mind. Soon the insomnia hangover, that cabbage-headed zombie feeling one gets from lack of sleep, will set in, and I will be awake but unable to function in any useful manner. Good thing I don't have a life to go to, isn't it?

Is this forum dead? very few posts lately, come on guys, wake the freak up!!!

Jungle said:

Is this forum dead? very few posts lately, come on guys, wake the freak up!!!

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This forum is a ghost of it's former self.

S_Spartan said:

This forum is a ghost of it's former self.

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Webhamster used to pay for it to be the top search on google. dropping that killed the membership

Is my life really over, or is there still a chance to turn things around and make a comeback? This early on a Sunday morning, it's hard to tell, but at least I'm wondering. :thinking: