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The vast majority of people are like vampires, they suck the life out of my day.

PugofCrydee said:

Well I'm not too sure. But Is there anything you can do to get out away from them? even if it's just for a couple of hours regularly on a saturday night? You could arrange to taxi down to a cinema, catch a flick or two. :question: I'm sure you'd appreciate the down time/breathing space and maybe even look forward to it.

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I get what yer sayin', but it's increasingly rare that they'll let me outta the house unaccompanied. Yep, they're that overly protective o' me. My oldest sister normally tags along to the cinema with me if they're summit on that we'd both like to see. I mean, she awrite when she not being obnoxious or seeking validation from me. Apparently I'm the "cool" wee brother...

Anyway, I did have a disabled bus/train pass once a beyond a time, which allow me to pay a half fare. Haven't renewed it since oh the early 2000s when one of my cousin would take me shopping in her local town. Also, don't know if I'll have to go through the usual bureaucratic BS to get it renewed? :question: Got photos for it, certainly. It's just, with some lazy c*nts taking advantage o' the system, I have to give proof that I'm disabled afore being eligible for stuff that I'm technically entitled to. :veryangry:

Plus the nearest local cinema which caters for disabled folk is like an hour and a half from where I live. Don't get me wrong, in recent years they've been fairly quick at getting the latest films from yer well-known Hollywood movie studios.

The only downside is - given that it's just a wee, rural, local-run cinema with 2 seperate screening rooms. And, depending on the film, the bit can be packed to capacity, even if you reserve a seat. So, it's best to get there early to be a sure a decent seat. Otherwise, it's the front-row. And in my case, being a fairly tall lad, yer slouched, arse dangling off the chair; neck craned upwards at the screen for 2 hours straight. :thumbdown:

Not that I'd be against getting a taxi there, it'd just be getting me there on time. And having enough money to pay the fair, there and back.Since the movie screenings at my local cinema vary from week to week. On top of that, you've got drinks, popcorn, ice-cream, etc.

MollyBeGood said:

Are you still in PA? Those people sound lost wow...
Were you wearing an official looking outfit perhaps? lol :idontknow:

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They seemed lost in several different ways. Haha
I'm at the park so often I wonder if people think that I work there.
Maybe I should be on the payroll.
I'm ready!

That's strange, can't seem to be able to login here via my Samsung tablet? Got a failed login email notification. First time that's ever happened. Yet, I can access the forum here no bother via my laptop? :thinking: :idontknow:

So I walked into this thrift store and this elderly guy had just fallen and hit his head.
So they called the paramedics and he was angry about that because he insisted he was fine.
But they wouldn't let him leave without getting checked out.
Then when they arrived they were asking him all these questions like what is his phone number and birthday.
So then I went to the front with my items and while I was standing there getting checked out this woman came running up behind me with her cart and yelled to the woman behind the counter that she would have to leave her items there for a while because her IBS is flaring up and she had to find a bathroom fast.
Apparently the store had no public restroom.
So she ran outside moaning.
Id bet money that she never made it to a restroom in time.
After all this I just looked at the cashier and said "never a dull moment in this place". To which she replied "sure ain't".

Graeme1988 said:

That's strange, can't seem to be able to login here via my Samsung tablet? Got a failed login email notification. First time that's ever happened. Yet, I can access the forum here no bother via my laptop? :thinking: :idontknow:

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It's probably due to the url now being https:... rather than the usual http: (ie encrypted, for better security). Also can't see youtube video images now.
Try to add a password for https url??

theslowesthand said:

It's probably due to the url now being https:... rather than the usual http: (ie encrypted, for better security). Also can't see youtube video images now.
Try to add a password for https url??

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Ye could be right. Ah couldnae tell ye, like. Not being that familiar with http code. Well, I've reset ma password and managed to get logged back in. I'll see if I can change it back, hopefully. :question:

Anyway, I'm off to update my own wee journal on here. Give a wee update on what's been happening with me, these past few weeks.

I thought I was done with this site, but I guess not. Lately has been weird; good weird, I guess. I have all of a sudden found myself to be a hot commodity at work - I don't know how to handle the attention, though. I looked up male body language and sure enough most guys are into me and it's kind of scary for me. I developed a crush on this guy who I know is also attracted to me, but he's married and I don't do that. That's the downside to all of this attention: I know it won't go anywhere because everyone at work is either married or in a relationship. There's a girl at work who really wants to hang out with me outside of work too and my anxiety is super high about it. She's literally the nicest person ever, but... I still don't have a car OR driver's license because I'm a piece of shit and it's seriously beyond humiliating for someone of my age. I know it needs to happen, like, now but I am so afraid of driving it's ridiculous...

I really want friends and a relationship and a life, but there's always a brick wall preventing it. ALWAYS.

Sarah_M said:

I thought I was done with this site, but I guess not

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I thought I was done with this life, but I guess not.

Sarah_M said:

I developed a crush on this guy who I know is also attracted to me, but he's married and I don't do that.

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I can't stand people who cheat on their supposed partners. Absolute dogs - male or female it doesn't matter.

Much respect and admiration to you for having good morals and standards in that area :thumbup:

Sometimes I wake in the night, fully aware of the horror of my reality. I watch the shadows swirling around my bed, climbing the walls, crawling across the ceiling, a dark, diaphanous mist of imagination, a ghastly trick of eye and mind, and I want to be as they are. I want to disappear, to be devoured by the creeping gloom I see around me. I want the shadows to consume me, that I might finally get some rest, but then I remember that they already have, and still I have no peace.

Not sure what to do with a mouse i caught. First time i caught it, i put it in with chooks in chook coup .. figured if it can survive them it can stay free. I presume it escaped, and came back into my house. So once again, i caught it by the feet, and now it's in a container, while i wonder what to do with it. My first thought was to go for a long walk & let it go (it will be too far away to get back to my house). But then i noticed it's now a cripple (has a broken front foot), so then i thought well i may as well kill it now (probably via poison pellets, but then it would die a slow painful death). So now i'm back to the idea of letting it go, WAY from house (say a kilometre), and letting it take its chances with a broken foot; i'd say it's got a good chance of surviving.
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PugofCrydee said:

I can't stand people who cheat on their supposed partners. Absolute dogs - male or female it doesn't matter.

Much respect and admiration to you for having good morals and standards in that area :thumbup:

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Thank you; I can't stand cheaters either. I think it's among the worst things you could ever do to another person and I'm not about that. Thankfully it's never happened to me, but I have witnessed it destroy my best friend and it's absolutely devastating.

Once things get "nasty" between me and a neighbor, i never forgive them & want to forever retain the same animosity, even if they want to be "friends" (i won't allow it).

Well the GOOD thing about spw being https now, is that since you can't play any videos any more, some pages are WAY faster to load! erfect:

Well I'm down to 177 pounds. Haven't seen below 180 in many years. Never thought I'd ever be below 180 again.
In fact, the last time I saw 180 was a few years ago when I was killing myself in the gym.
No gym this time. Just a change in diet and lots of walking.
So I Googled what a guy my age age should weigh and most calculators point to around 152. 152!!!
I'd be a twig!
I've always been a bigger build guy, which I like, so I'm thinking now I'll try for around 165.
Even then probably too thin.

this morning the sergeant told me that theres a hit on ALL officers at the prison i work at. which means any inmate affiliated with a gang or a member of a gang who wants a chance at "earning their stripes" so to speak, just has to assault an officer.


grrrrrreat..... -_-

S_Spartan said:

Well I'm down to 177 pounds. Haven't seen below 180 in many years. Never thought I'd ever be below 180 again.
In fact, the last time I saw 180 was a few years ago when I was killing myself in the gym.
No gym this time. Just a change in diet and lots of walking.
So I Googled what a guy my age age should weigh and most calculators point to around 152. 152!!!
I'd be a twig!
I've always been a bigger build guy, which I like, so I'm thinking now I'll try for around 165.
Even then probably too thin.

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Well i'm about 130 pound, and 5"9.5'. I'm a "twig" as you call it, no doubt about that. I've got a fast metabolism, and i just can't put on weight. Recently i got up to ~140 pound, which is is about the heaviest i've been over the years.
How tall are you?

I ordered some shirts online I was extremely excited about, but had to have them sent to my mom's house because I don't trust it being sent to my apartment complex. I got them today and opened them in front of both my mom and niece - they aren't anything bad and I am thrilled with them, but an issue came up: my mom doesn't accept who I am as a person. I bought a Big Lebowski shirt, an Alien shirt and a Bioshock shirt all of which got disapproval from her and a "well those are interesting..." - this has been an issue my whole life. On one hand I love feminine shit - makeup, perfume, girl clothes etc., but I also love metal, sci-fi, horror, video games etc. I feel embarrassed to be who I am, like, my mother's opinion is popular opinion, so I should restrain myself from being who I actually am to appease other people/fit in. I feel like because she gave birth to me I am an extension of her and if I don't act accordingly anything I do that doesn't fit within those parameters will be met with disapproval and for me, shame. I hate it.

Why would SPW make it so you can't play vid's??

We are limited to writing to express ourselves now?