Have you Ever Cut?

lyn · Newbie User Joined: Apr 14, 2007 Posts: 16 Location: MASS

can anyone help please?

Pitrus · Posted: Sat Apr 14, 2007 5:26 am Post subject:

WHy would cutting make u feel better. I think u might be Sadomasohistic or something. I dont kno anybody here could help u with that but a good psychiatrist.

Danfalc · Posted: Sat Apr 14, 2007 9:54 am Post subject:

lyn · Newbie User Joined: Apr 14, 2007 Posts: 16 Location: MASS

OK, thanks danfalc, i appreciate the reply:). I tend to cut on impulse, i do not plan to do it but all of a sudden something will happen and trigger the urge to cut, and i will have no control over it. And i like to talk about it, thats why i joined this forum, yet i cant talk about it with nay of my friends. I feel as if they wont understand and i dont want them to worry and feel bad, or start cutting themselves. At first last year i cut the upper part of my arm, it was very minor and pathetic. But now, my cuts have been moving down my arm and have been getting deppe. People were noticing and asking what happned so i had to stop cutting so much up there and resort to my legs and stomach.

Danfalc · Posted: Sat Apr 14, 2007 5:46 pm Post subject:

Cutting doesnt matter if you scratch yaself or cut.. its still self harming its not minor or pathetic Sad

the fact your still doing it despite the instinct of self protection we have means you struggling to cope with whatever feeling or event triggers you.Its good you can talk about it,i always think its nice to know your not the only one.Its probaly not wise to just tell your friends because there not profesionals.. and might find it hard to understand,i could be completley wrong and they would be very understanding and supportive but ive told people and later regreted it.

I dont like to say this.. but its going to get worse Sad

it really is the nature of self harming.. your body kind of gets use to it.. and you progress to big cuts to release the chemicals more because at the time you feel it helps.Some people cut for attenion.. and i dont mean that in the bad way of them being attenion seekers but that they need help.From what you wrote i can tell ya dont with doing it on impulse and resorting to cutting places most people wont see.I was the same.. at first i cut my hands and arms... but when i started doing it badly and people noticed i switched to my chest and such.But i still think a part of me deep down wanted to like see what i was doing and intervene.. i do think it is also a cry for help,it was in my situatuon anyway.

I think it would really help you if you could get the courage to go to speak to someone about it,often our problems are linked together and i reckon if you worked on this you would notice other aspects of your life improving... i know its hard and i felt shamefull bout it which is why i didnt talk to anyone and still wont.But i did it really badly once deeper than i ment to, which left me hospitilised which scared me from doing it a little.. that and the fact i have many really bad scars put me off,but i hope you can beat this without getting to that point.Maybe you could ring a service which could help... that way if you dont fel comfortable you can simply hang up.

Another thing... this might sound silly... but ive heard people who have the impulse to self harm.. screaming and beating the crap out of pillows..and even pinching themselves and stuff.. id never encourage anyone to hutr emselves but sommat like that would be better than taking a knife to yourself Sad

The only other thing i can think to add.. is have a first aid kit in your bedroom with anti-septic, bandages and paper stiches..clean and close the wound afterwards to prevent as much scarring as possible.

Spearmint · Newbie User Joined: Jan 30, 2007 Posts: 81

Tryin · Advanced User Joined: Sep 04, 2006 Posts: 413

Spearmint - Is cutting a prelude to suicide? Well.. not exactly. Somebody in here made an excellent post about how cutting makes your brain produce hormones and stuff. But you are right - self-harm doesn't make sense. It's about punishing yourself... subsituing psychical pain with physical... there's more about it... it's complicated.

Lyn - you have to stop doing it. Please, please, Lyn, stop hurting yourself. If you don't stop now, it's going to get worse. And worse. Oh. Is there a way how I could help you? Feel free to contact me.

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lyn · Newbie User Joined: Apr 14, 2007 Posts: 16 Location: MASS

spearmint- It is a prelude to suicide or what? I remebr reading someones post that made a very good point for this. They said that cutting is the complete opisite of suicide, where cutting is a method used to survive and suicide is a way to end, but then at the same time, isnt that kind of the same thing?

tryin- Thank you for the reply, i try hard to stop it. And when ever i begin to make progress, something will happen and i will cut on impulse, as if i have no control. Im not sure what you can do, but talking about helps me out and makes me feel not so alone. Smile

i apprciate the fact that you care:)

danfalc- You have been a very big help, and i really appreciate you replying to my posts and giving me advice, and telling me sotries of your pass which relate to mine. Im sorry to hear that you have suffered from problems simlir to mine and i hope that you are working through them ok now:) I agree with you that i might regeret telling my friends, thats why this forums is really helping me and my need to talk to someone.

I can assure you i dont cut for attention, becuase the truth is i dont want anyoen to know and i am doing all i can to hid the cuts so noone will see them. im really glad you understand what kind of feeling i am having and dont think im some overdramtic teenager, it really means alot to me.

My friend found a razor blade in my purse the other day, and i made up so lame excuse why it was in there.. i dont think she belived me but she didnt act on it even if she didnt belive me. I think it scared her, alot. I always need to keep it wiht me at all times, and if i dotn have it i feel unsafe and get extrmely upset. Its terrble.

I will start cleaning my cuts like you said, and i will try to use your pillow method next time, but im not sure i will be able to resist the impulse. Are you steadily improving today? I really hope you are. Smile

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LifeInShadows · Newbie User Joined: Apr 11, 2007 Posts: 3

For me, there is nothing better in this miserable world better than cutting, absolutely nothing. No drug, no person, no experience is better than that burning sensation of feeling the flesh sting like it does after I cut.

lyn · Newbie User Joined: Apr 14, 2007 Posts: 16 Location: MASS

LifeInShadows - Like you i also cut myself, But when you say that there is no person or expiernce better than that, i was wondering if there are any peopel in your life that come close to giving you the feeling you get after you cut?