Posted: Fri Apr 20, 2007 2:35 am Post subject: Thank you
I'm so glad things are working out for you, Thelema. Please continue to give us updates, as hearing about the successes of others in these situations is one of the things that helps keep me going. It gives hope. Thank you for posting.
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Posted: Sat Apr 21, 2007 1:34 pm Post subject:
^I totally agree. Reading your successes makes me so much more confident that everything will be ok for me one day. Thanks.
Oh, and about the erections, isn't it better that way, than the other way around?
Yesterday we were walking with Morgan and Brittany and she had grabbed my chest from behind and I told her I was going to do that to her. She had been touching my and poking my butt and stuff and yeah I got an erection...she thinks its funny...so when I went to grab her chest from behind (I really didn't grab her boobs I put my hands above them) and even tho I tried to angle my body so I wouldn't touch her with it...I gave her a weggie with it
Yeah I know. I want to tell her to just wait 30 or 40 years and it will go away
When we walk and I have my arm around her she'll lightly kiss my hand or she'll kiss my shoulder.
She begged me to rename her vagina because she hates Ethil. Its funny because its such a horrible name. I told her it stays until she proves she doesn't have an Ethil
She doesn't drive now because she got in a small accident on the first day she could drive and she has a little phobia about it. She drives Morgan's car once in a while and drives me home. I hug her and tell her I love her and she tells me she loves me and we kiss.
We're both too scared to make the first move or whatever and Morgan gives her crap about it and she gets a little nervous. When could we do anything anyway...I'm not going to do anything with Morgan there without Brittany there because it will make Morgan feel like the third wheel (he's said that to her and she told me) we can't do anything at her house because her parents check in on us. They used to make her keep the door open but I think they're more comfortable now and let the door stay closed...she told her mom about how we both can't do anything.
I've never made out with a girl before... It seems so complicated its going to happen one of these days and its just scary but I really want to do it
We're going to see a movie on the 27th and it makes me think of how much things have changed since the last movie we saw. We were both too scared to touch one another and here I am grabbing her chest now
I'm about to send a message to her that we should take a picture of us doing the same thing as that famous picture I was talking about. She still wants a picture of me. I think it would be so cool to do
Its so strange. It went from being so lonely and feeling like crap all the time to having not only a girlfriend but a girl I really love and that loves me back. I'm having such great times now and its just great. I couldn't have dreamed it any better
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Well we didn't go see the movie. Something happened with her dad and she was mad. Morgan and Brittany were going to come too but Brittany was grounded. We just drove around since we had nowhere to go and finally just went to a park and sat and talked about meaningless stuff. Like if aliens could be gay if they don't have sexes. I think you could still be flaming gay even if you aren't considered a male or female.
The wife (I refer to her as my wife now sometimes) had to bowl a tournament she didn't want to do today. She sent me a message a little while ago asking if I would come with her tomorrow to it. Of course I wanna go...not seeing her for a one day is too long
I found out that she quit smoking for me. When she was getting up the courage to talk to me she thought I would think she was gross if she smoked. I can't even tell you how much that means to me
I'm fine with Morgan there now but I kinda feel a little bad for him when Hollyann is close to me and stuff and I don't want him to feel like a third wheel. Brittany needs to hang out with us more so everyone could be happy but she has to be home early all the time and is grounded now
It can happen to anyone...I don't know how she could love me...I can't do anything for her any other guy could do better but she loves me
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be thou therefore without fear for in the heart of the coward virtue abideth not.
We went to the tournament and it wasn't that boring even tho I knew I'd be sitting around for a couple hours with her parents. I just read and bothered her with my cell phone. I'd text something and she'd read it and text it back in between shots. Her dad really liked one of my books and I think wants a copy for himself.
When we were driving back she had a bag of chips with a clothes pin holding it closed and she took the pin off and stuck it on my nipple. I was wearing an under shirt a t shirt and a jacket on top of that and she got my nipple and it hung there...I was like AHHHHH MY NIIPPLLLEEEE!!!!! as it was hanging on...she took it off as she died laughing. She didn't really think she'd actually get it but she did and it was sore the rest of the day...it was pretty funny On the way back we held hands for probably 30 minutes and my hands were all sweaty but I didn't want to let go...
Later we hung out with Morgan and Brittany. Now little kids stop reading past this point...The second day Morgan and Brittany were dating Morgan went down on her and they moved really way too fast. Me and Hollyann were still passing the phone to one another since Brittanny was freazing her butt off and I was wondering why Morgan didn't offer her his coat or something. I told her that I'm glad we're not moving as fast as them and then having a strange relationship since they don't act like they love one another but more like its friends with benefits or whatever. We agreed that we would take it slow and that we don't want to ruin what we have together by moving fast
We were joking texting back to one another. I told her...Yes I aldready know you want to bang me. She said haha yes and that she thought it would be good for both of us and I agreed
Her mom had a weird conversation with her and told her when me and her start talking about sex so she can get her on the pill and that she still wants us to use a condom anyway. So I guess her mom is fine with us having sex...strange huh. We both thought it was funny and she told me about it in an email and closed with with love you. The sex will be great
She says she misses me when we aren't together and she wants to wake up with me beside her
Last night she asked me if I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her...I told her if she wanted to spend it with me. She said she did. I said not to say that if she doesn't really mean it and she said she did mean it and that she's even said it before when I wasn't there. Yes...tears of joy moment...I'm not ashamed of it
The problem with the erections is getting better. I can hug her without having to worry about it too much. I guess it was that I hadn't really been close to a girl in so long...much less one I was in love with
She wants to go to prom with me and made me promise I'd get a picture ID since I need it to get in
She's put her hand in my back pocket a couple times. I would put my hand in her pocket but her jeans are tight and I'm not sure I could fit my hand in
Yes I took a chance and it was one of the scariest things I've ever done but it payed off more than I could imagine it would
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be thou therefore without fear for in the heart of the coward virtue abideth not.
Since the last time I posted. I went to dinner with wifey and Morgan and Brittany. I hate the Olive Garden but it was fun. She told me she was mad at me the next day for comparing her to Brittany during dinner. I honestly don't remember doing that but she wasn't that mad she said so I guess its ok.
I went paintballing for Brittany's birthday. Hollyann shot me in the penis...No joke...square on from the other end of the field Thankfully the sweat shirt and I donno what you call it...I was kneeling and there was enough fabric to dampen it enough. She also shot me in the thigh and I had a mark there for a few days. I didn't even get her once. She was a lot better at me at it and it was a lot of fun
Brittany is over in Florida right now and since she left Morgan has started telling her how he loves her and all that stuff and she told him it isn't right since he has a girlfriend and she has a boyfriend. I thought he was fine with us being together and since he has a girlfriend....He gives us crap for not doing anything but he doesn't even want us together I guess
It turns out I can't go to prom...I don't have all the documents to prove who I am to get an id. If your over 18 its fucking hard so any of you kids out there GET YOUR LICENSE OR ATLEAST AN ID BEFORE YOU TURN 18! IT GETS MUCH HARDER AND IT REALLY SUX SO DO IT BEFORE YOU TURN 18!
I felt really bad about not being able to go so I bought her a pink topaz necklace that should match he prom dress really well. I hate to let her down and since she had given me crap for not buying he jewelry I decided to get her something. Me and my mom went downtown and looked in all the stores but nothing caught my eye so we went to the mall. We went from one end of the mall to the other until finally I saw something I liked...too bad I picked out $1000 necklace the sales lady showed us another necklace that was a little cheaper and was perfect. I had to lie to my mom about how much money I had since she wanted me to pay her back $50 for it....I spent some of that on dinner so I don't have $50 anymore.
When she picked me up I gave it to her and she was surprised. She didn't open it the whole time we hung out. I thought she kinda didn't want it since she asked why I got her anything in a kind of accusing tone of voice... I started feeling like I shouldn't have gotten it for her and whatever....I felt bad and she had given me crap for not buying he jewelry before so whats the big deal....I can't give my girlfriend something nice.... The next morning she texted me thanks and told me it was beautiful and she loved it...I'm still not sure I should have gotten it for her since she didn't seem happy I got her something. Yesterday she told me her boyfriend gives her more jewelry then her dad gives her mom...so that means she's happy about it right? I donno
Love is great but confusing at times
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