Depression getting worse

recluse · Posted: Fri Oct 12, 2007 7:43 pm Post subject: Depression getting worse

My depression is getting worse as winter is coming. I already have more difficulty getting out of bed because it's dark all the time. The thing that's mainly making me depressed is my loneliness, and there's no point in advicing me to ''Join a club'' o'r ''go to church'' because my loneliness is chronic and no amount of attempting to be social helps. The way i feel as a person is that i am numb....I have no personality, i go through the days like a robot. I feel i have no charisma. I'm insanely jealous of guys who have no trouble in having a crowd of people around them, because they have the art of entertaining, they have a magnetic personality which makes people happy, whilst i'm this boring, half alive being who no one takes an interest in. I can only describe myself as ''existing'' and not living life. I feel that living the rest of my pointless life like this is nothing but pain. If i didn't have my mum, dad and sister i wouldn't hesitate in ending my life right now because i feel nothing but emptiness. They are the only reason for me to live.

Day_Tripper · Intermediate User Joined: Sep 02, 2007 Posts: 260

Find a talent. If you're not gonna talk to people, at least express yourself in one way or another. Guitar got me out of the hole that you're in. Maybe for you it's writing, painting, music, or even director.

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Clockwork · Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2007 2:20 am Post subject:

Your avatar and signature owns bro.

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recluse · Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2007 12:44 pm Post subject:

sammii · Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2007 1:04 pm Post subject:

Hi! Recluse!

It saddened me to read how lonely you are. I know what it's like to have no interest in hobbies etc & to have no interest in life. I too feel dead inside right now which is the only way to describe it really. I have so many issues going on at the moment. Im sorry i cant offer any advise but just wanted you to know that you're not alone & life is really tough for alot of people. Look after yourself.