the only person who knows the real me is my sister. shes my best friend and when im with her i have so much fun. we're crazy and silly and we just make each other laugh constantly. we take the piss out of each other and wind each other up. its so relaxed and i can say absolutely anything. she makes me feel like im a really nice, special, fun person. im just me when im with her and nobody else can bring that side of me out. nobody else brings anything like the real me out of me.
In all honesty, I don't think I myself know the real me. I've been shy for so long, I don't think I have any personality outside of my reclusiveness. (But then again, mabye that's my shyness talking...)
Masks suck. If you can get me to open up, I'm more carefree underneath. Only under certain circumstances, though. Honestly, I hate wearing this ugly mask all the time. The one that makes me never want to meet new people, and just hide away. I'm ready to ditch this thing. I want to take it off today.
There's nobody, with myself being the exception, that I'm comfortable enough with to let the "real" me shine.
I live my life like a camera is following me around. When I'm alone, the verbal side to all that comes forth. I'm a really dramatic, loud, postitive person. If I didn't totally freak when it comes to having any contact with anyone, I could easily be the Drama Queen of my high-school. ~*~throws tail of scarf behind her and walks away~*~
I tend to open up more around my siblings. Then I'm totally wacko and there's no stopping me. I'm the cheerleader/rockstar/crazy cat lady/Burger Queen/mother/psycho friendless loser/hopeless romantic/teenage girl ALL in one.
Joined: Jul 30, 2007 Posts: 178 Location: TORONTO, CA
Posted: Tue Nov 06, 2007 3:49 am Post subject:
LovelyMissMadi wrote:
There's nobody, with myself being the exception, that I'm comfortable enough with to let the "real" me shine.
I live my life like a camera is following me around. When I'm alone, the verbal side to all that comes forth. I'm a really dramatic, loud, postitive person. If I didn't totally freak when it comes to having any contact with anyone, I could easily be the Drama Queen of my high-school. ~*~throws tail of scarf behind her and walks away~*~
I tend to open up more around my siblings. Then I'm totally wacko and there's no stopping me. I'm the cheerleader/rockstar/crazy cat lady/Burger Queen/mother/psycho friendless loser/hopeless romantic/teenage girl ALL in one.
lol same, im the most comfortable with my little sisters which are nearly 10 years younger than me. i can be so silly and care free around them, yet i seem so serious around everyone else
Once again this website shocks me! I am not alone! Alot of you describe the way I feel so much.
When I'm comfortable with people I am happy, outgoing and occasionally funny but as soon as I lose that comfort factor my mind goes blank, I have nothing to say, I feel stupid and out of place trying to hind and not be seen.
Why does this happen? Why can't we be ourselves, I don't understand...
We hide, wear masks, and play chameleons so when others think they are judging us, they are only throwing mud at false façades. Our real selves are safe from critique, hidden deep within. We create our false fronts to protect our real selves.
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