Joined: Dec 31, 2007 Posts: 2 Location: Wellington NZ
Posted: Sun Dec 30, 2007 11:18 pm Post subject: Hello everybody
Hi there, I'm from Wellington .NZ.. and have just found this site, its great to know I'm not alone and am currently working through my issues with cognitive behavioural therapy.. hope to chat with lots of you great people and we can work through it together.
Hi Everyone, I'm Sagal. I turned 29 a week ago and have suffered from depression for pretty much half of my life. I used to be fun and sparkly and optimistic (ha!) before I adopted this new reality. Or it adopted me.
I don't expect to get the sparkle back but i would like some hope. That's my New Year's resolution. To inject just a little bit of light and hope into my life and see where I can go from there.
I'm very grateful to have found this site - it seems a good place to start: somewhere where people get it.
Hi Everyone, I'm Sagal. I turned 29 a week ago and have suffered from depression for pretty much half of my life. I used to be fun and sparkly and optimistic (ha!) before I adopted this new reality. Or it adopted me.
I don't expect to get the sparkle back but i would like some hope. That's my New Year's resolution. To inject just a little bit of light and hope into my life and see where I can go from there.
I'm very grateful to have found this site - it seems a good place to start: somewhere where people get it.
Posted: Mon Jan 21, 2008 10:23 pm Post subject: NEw guy, new emotions
Hey everyone,
I have always been kind of a jumpy person, but for the last few months I cant talk to people without difficulty breathing, my heart races when the phone rings, and I feel uncomfortable all the time. These feelings are like i said new to me within a few months. I dont know how to handle it very well, and I find myself locked in my room thinking about it. I am looking for security and help, like everyone here i guess.
Tessitore12
Joined: Jan 21, 2008 Posts: 5 Location: South London
Posted: Tue Jan 22, 2008 1:15 am Post subject:
The reason I want to delete my account is because I don't think the internet is a secure place to talk about this kind of stuff.
Anyone can access it / use it for research purposes.
People who don't suffer from this can look at it and mock us.
Maybe that's just my paranoia setting in...
Joined: Jan 24, 2008 Posts: 7 Location: Fresno, CA
Posted: Thu Jan 24, 2008 2:39 pm Post subject:
My name is Fred, I'm 35-years old. I live in California.
My father was an alcoholic (and I suspect an undiagnosed paranoid schizophrenic) who was verbally and physically abusive to his wife and children. Years of psychological abuse at his hands, coupled with the typical sort of bullying and abuse an overweight child receives at school (I was very obese as a child and teen) created very powerful social phobias within me. I shun crowds, and I tend to avoid situations that would put me into close physical proximity to other people for extended periods of time. With time and maturity I have been able to get a handle on this for the most part. But there are days I still struggle to overcome this aversion to placing myself in social situations.
More recently I have experienced the loss of my mother, step-father, and older brother. My step-father died of renal failure in 2002. My mother of colon cancer in 2005. And my brother of gastric cancer last October. Those three were the three single most important adults in my life. I looked to them for guidance and often feel completely lost without them. None of them were older than 60-years of age. My brother had just celebrated his 40th birthday prior to being diagnosed with late term cancer in 2007.
With the losses I have become the guardian of an older special needs sister (she is mentally and physically handicapped) and my two nephews (one of which is also mildly retarded).
Though we have a large amount of family living in the city with us, they shun us like a leper colony. I've a hunch that we are an embarrassment, not being "perfect" as they all think themselves to be. Since my brother's passing (3 months) our phone hasn't rang. We've received no e-mail, no post letters. We've no close friends. All we have is one another.
We get by on around sixteen hundred dollars per month. I have to be very creative with our budget to make ends meet. But, despite our lack of monetary wealth, we love one another and enjoy simple and relatively happy lives. The kids (as I call my sis and my nephews) are remarkably resilient. And we, being Christians are sustained by faith.
I guess I decided to register here just to have someone to talk to. As I've said, I have no more adults to discuss things with in my life. My brother is dead, and I don't really have close personal friends. I have an aunt who lives just down the street from my apartment. But as far as she's concerned, I and the kids do not exist. There are days I become quite depressed and need to vent. Hopefully I'll find a few sympathetic ears, and perhaps I can be a shoulder for some of you to lean on as well.
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