My life has gone down the tube!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

depressed_diva_93

A couple of weeks ago, my mum started getting depressed and feeling sick. I though it would only last a couple of weeks but it has gotten worse. Yesterday, for the first time in 2 years my mum smoked a cigarette. She has a depression condition that can't be cured but goes away for a long time, comes back then goes away again. After about 5 years, it seems to have come back and she is always crying, talking about running away or suicide. My mum and dad have also started to argue quite a lot. And this week I have cried about more than 10 times, thinking of last year and what a great time we had on holiday. I have also started to scratch myself with a needle, self harming myself. At school I have had problems and fights with my friends, which isn't helping the situation at home. I feel like running away or throwing myself off a bridge and need desperate help before my family falls apart Sad

Female, 14 UK

Starry · Posted: Fri Jul 06, 2007 12:00 pm Post subject:

I'm so sorry about everything with your family. You shouldn't have to experience that at only 14.

I'm sorry about your mother, you must find it very difficult. My mother was depressed when I was a child and would talk about leaving and killing herself, though I was younger than you at the time. So I know how it feels. It's really horrible.

I know about scratching yourself too. Since I do that too. I know I shouldn't but sometimes it seems to be the only thing to do, right? Though a lot of the time I try to do other things instead... Draw a picture, I don't mean concentrate and try to do well. Just take out your emotions on the paper, scribble away. Rip up the paper, whatever... It can help sometimes.

You should also try to find someone you trust absolutely that you can talk to. Maybe even try talking to your mother, though while she's depressed it may not prove much use.

Sorry I'm not much use. But I know how you feel.

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Mondo · Newbie User Joined: Jun 17, 2007 Posts: 14

Hi DD93,

I feel for you as well. I come from a dsyfuntional home where my Mom would go Hysterical, be abusive and basically tear the place up... as well as any relations to her that she was around. To cope I did self destructive things that were harming, like drinking and drugs. I agree with Starry, talk about how you are feeling. Here is a good start, maybe try and reach out to friends or a counseller. Keeping it inside will only make things worse. The more you share the better it will get. You are not alone! Keep posting on here, we care, and want you to be healthy.

yayooxy · Newbie User Joined: Jan 06, 2008 Posts: 9

You are not alone i feel you just be strong.......

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