Posted: Wed Jan 23, 2008 12:39 pm Post subject: My Blog for Today
Today how I am feeling is mediocre pronounced mee-dee-oh-ker
I didn't work today. There was no work today I'm not feeling good about that. Although I can work when I want and although I make money doing
autosurfs investing and such, I still miss the kids sometimes. They are
very therapuedic for me. Let me tell you something guys about kids, did
you know that kids are little angels? I mean there are plenty of times that
I can remember being sad and depressed and feeling hopeless and did you know that children that I don't even know on the streets or in the school would just come up to me and give me a hug for no reason at all. And I don't even know these children. I'm telling you they are god's little messengers.
Anyway, yesterday I was feeling happy out of the blue and I started praising god and stuff. The day before that, I was sad. On Monday I was a little happy again. I am tired of all these emotions in me. Um my schedule for today is to stay in and watch kung fu movies, then at 10am watch The Peoples Court At 1pm I'll watch Days of our Lives. At 2pm I'll watch Passions the soap opera. You must have Directv satellite in order to watch Passions. Then I'll probably make some phones calls.
Then I will be google searching this new laptop that I want to buy it's from HP. Oh man is this laptop hot. It has touch screen and a swivel screen. Also 250 gigabyte hard drive and 3mb of ram memory plus it has Vista Premium and loaded with a whole lot of other stuff. This is truly a gaming laptop. I need a laptop with high speeds and stuff with all the work at home stuff I do on the computer. I sometimes do some paid to clicks also. Anyway did you know that if you guys have cable tv or satellite tv that with this laptop if you attached a wireless Belkin router to it, that you can pick up your cable tv channels from anywhere on the planet. Meaning you will be able to watch your cable tv on this laptop from anywhere on the planet. AWESOME. RADICAL yawl. Here is the site. Actually talking about this laptop kind of lifts up my spirits right now: http://www.webtechgeek.com/Tech-Toys-Gadget/01-05-2008/HP-Pavilion-TX1420US-Notebook-PC.htm
Oh btw, I don't know where you guys live but did you know that Compusa
is going out of business? Yeah if you guys live within the 50 states then you know Compusa is an electronic store that sells everything from computers to tvs, to routers, phones, printers, scanners, etc...
Anyway they will be completely out of business by the end of next month
but their laptops are pricing down like crazy. I mean I was just there yesterday and their Sony Vaio went from $1100 to $800 and it's going to keep getting lower. Their HP's will all the specs I told you about, has been priced down to $764. I mean like hello people. That is the lowest in history
And it will get lower. The only reason why i didn't get their HP is because
it didn't have the touch screen that I want. But OMG guys you better run and hurry, they stuff is pricing down and selling like hot cakes
Alright guys, I will be back later to let you know how I feel. P.s, I am not
on any medication. I used to take medications when I had insurance. Now I do not have any insurance and I would have to reapply however in a way it is not so much of an issue for me because when I used to take Zoloft, Prozac, Paxil, Buspar, Seroqual, Effexor and such, I always had side effects. Prozac worked for about 3 months then stopped. Buspar did help but I think it stopped working or I had to increase the dosage or something. Effexor made my vagina bleed. I think it was really making my stomach bleed and it was just coming out of my vagina. Seroqual lost it's effectiveness and probably the dosage needed to be increased but come on guys. How long do we have to keep increasing our dosage. To 5000mg? It's ridiculous. all these medications has side effects so I decided to go cold turkey and try to change my eating habits because I feel that all of our problems that we are having is due to what we are eating. Try drinking Chamomile tea and Valerian root.
Anyway guys I will be back later to give you an update on my emotions. Thanks
Ok day 2
Today is Thursday Jan 24, 2008 and today was horrible for me. I went to
work at the high school today. I should have taken an elementary school.
But anyways the kids were ok it's just the teachers or the people on the bus or in the cars. I don't know why I always feel that everybody is watching me or why I even care. But it's like it's a struggle everyday that's why I like to stay in my house. And I can't wait until I am fully a work at home individual. I am almost there but it gets so hard you guys. I try praying but sometimes I feel it helps and then other times especially on days like this where I feel overwhelmed and trapped, I feel like I want to shout help me god when I'm in the car or on the bus but I get scared of everybody looking at me and what they would think. Although I have to admit, whenever I shout to god or shout halellujah, I do feel free but the trick is to keep doing it especially when I am outside because that is where I am attacked the most. But this is the battle, I get scared of what people are thinking. I get scared of people watching me. Anyway the school was boring today. These kids don't want to do any work just go on the computers. And it was a boring day. I was glad to get the hell out of there. And on days like this, I think I will skip work tomorrow and go back on Monday. And I will never go back to this school, too boring. Anyway at the moment I feel a little lonely, I feel like god hates me and I feel like I need to have faith and think positive but like at the moment I'm like what's the sense. What good is it doing me. But this is just at the moment because tomorrow my spirits might be up again for no apparant reason.
I wish someone would talk to me in here and respond to me
Ok today is day 3
Saturday Jan 26th, 2008 and I feel a little bit better than I did yesterday. Um lets see, there are days like yesterday when I just feel hopeless and depressed. Then all of a sudden, I feel happy again for no reason at all. A joy just comes over me. Then another day a depression just comes over me then the next day a joy just comes over me. I think I have two conditions. I think I have both Social Anxiety AND Bipolar. Because my moods changes alot and on top of that, I get nervous around people so I stay in my house all the time. Well tomorrow is my birthday. Some birthday huh? Oh well I will sing happy birthday to me all
by myself
Anyway I'm just trying to figure out which laptop to buy. It will be between
a toshiba Qosmio or an HP pavilion. Both are extremely hot. Anyway last night, I was not able to sleep. I did not go to bed until 6am in the morning.
So I took 2 Seroqual that my therapist had prescribed to me. And I got knocked out. But I don't take the Seroqual on a daily basis because after a while, it doesn't work so I take the Seroqual once in a while when I can't sleep. Anyway, I have alot of problems trying to remember things. I even have a book that I use to write things down to remember what I have to do. An agenda book if you will. I mean the minute I remember that I have to do something or buy something or google search something, or whatever, I have to write it down like immediately. If I don't write it down like immediately, I will forget it like that instantly. Is that normal? Or what? Oh well guys, my eyes are getting tired and I will try to get some sleep. I will be back tomorrow.
Sorry to bump on your blog space, but if you want a laptop to take around with you, I would recommend against a Toshiba Qosmio...
1 hour battery life, and after a while of use, you could fry an egg on either the charger, or the heat from the fans. And my screen has started getting lines down it after about 2 years of (ab?)use. Otherwise it's a great ...(can't really say little, it weighs about as much as my newborn nephew...) piece of kit.
Thank God somebody is talking to me, YEAH
Oh Allan sweety, it's ok. Writing this blog helps me to let off steam besides
I love to write, but at the same time, I was beginning to think nobody is
talking to me in this forum. So Anybody is welcome to intrude on my blog
with any comment, or question or suggestions. Any form of human contact
is a God send right now.
Ok today is Day 4, Monday January 28, 2008
The day after my birthday. Anyway how do I feel today. I feel a little
bit better despite the fact that I am waiting on a so-called bastard friend
that was supposed to come to my house, and he never showed up.
I'm about to kick this jerk to the curb because it makes no sense how
I have been living here in Virginia for nearly a year and this bastard has
never come to visit me. Then why is he calling me then. I'm about to tell
him to stop calling me. Because it makes no sense to have phony people
around you, it's better you be alone or find new friends who will act like
a friend and visit you. It makes no sense he calls me 24/7 non-stop
and doesn't visit me. UNLESS, he has social anxiety too and I don't know
it.
Then you got this other bastard who I am about to get an order of
protection against him because he won't leave me alone. I told him to
stop calling my house. I left that message on his answering machine.
I changed my phone number and he keeps writing me all these letters
saying he's sorry and he can't reach me and to please call him. Now I
am afraid that he will be coming to my house next or probably stalking me. I'm trying to get the hell out of here and move back to
New York City. Now if I don't call him, which I won't, I'm afraid the next step is that he will try to come to my house or worse yet, try to break
into my house. Or maybe park near my house and watch my every move. Eww, very scary. Maybe I'm just being paranoid but I know from experience that men can snap when you tell them to stop calling you. Anyway, I'm going to pray, and believe Yahweh almighty and make new friends but I will not call that jerk back ever.
So now let's see, um I'm going to do some paid to clicks now. Make me
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Well right now I am making me some curry chicken and corn stuffing right
now. I might eliminate the corn stuffing and just eat the curry chicken
with salad right now since my rice burned. Anyway so that's it. I will be
back tomorrow. God speed
Allan wrote:
Sorry to bump on your blog space, but if you want a laptop to take around with you, I would recommend against a Toshiba Qosmio...
1 hour battery life, and after a while of use, you could fry an egg on either the charger, or the heat from the fans. And my screen has started getting lines down it after about 2 years of (ab?)use. Otherwise it's a great ...(can't really say little, it weighs about as much as my newborn nephew...) piece of kit.
Day 5 Wed Jan 30, 2008
Sigh, well today I taught a 2nd grade. They were so cute but behaved
pretty well. Anyway, My feelings today has kind of plummeted again
Sometimes I wish I were dead and then other times I feel to try
to hold on again. One thing's for sure is that I do feel comfortable
in this forum though. But my life dream is to get plastic surgery and
that is what I am working towards. I need like $30,000 worth of
plastic surgery. I've already researched the great plastic surgeons
One things for sure is that I would never go overseas to do plastic
surgery. They charge very cheap and the work looks cheap also
They can really damage you or even worse kill you. Anyway
God please help meeee. Sometimes I feel like shouting. And I feel
better when I do to. Anyway my head hurts me right now and
I'm going to go try and relax. Peace out
Hi again, today is day 6 Friday yay Feb 1, 2008 and it poured mostly the
whole day. I got soaked.
Anyway I'm a little upset because I went to do my taxes today and
I forgot one of my tax documents. Anyways I will go back tomorrow
BTW guys if any of you are doing business online for yourself
you know making money online, you can claim that in your taxes
and get back mega dollars$$$$$$ Just thought I'd throw that in
there. So I was feeling terrible outside with all the people and stuff
but I made it through yawl
I'm back in my house and feeling a little bit better after I prayed
It helps some. Um so I guess that's it for now. Take care god speed
I will be back tomorrow. Bye
I'm liking the HP 17" laptop. Though it'll probably have similar battery life problems to the Qosmio series. Laptops wern't really designed to run desktop style hardware for a long time on batteries.
Considering the ... rather unique nature of how the battery on the Qosmio is set up, it's probably not going to work too well with the universal Laptop Battery. But I'm none too sure - I haven't a clue how it works. ^_^
And finding replacement parts for these super-laptops is no easy feat. I had to get my dad to do a bit of a DIY fix on my charger lead, after it shorted out and set the wire on fire ( We had a power surge. ), so until I manage to find an adequate replacement, I have to risk life, limb and bed linen with using it, hoping it won't spark at the joiner.
You can't use Universal adaptors with most super-laptops either, as they drain so much power that they'll drain the voltage control unit of power, so the charging is very intermittant, and next to useless for charging in use.
I hope you're doing a bit better now than your blog seems to be saying lately.
Hey Allen how you been
Hey everybody nice to be back. Been very busy
Hey Allen I have decided to go with a Sony Vaio because with the
Sony Vaio I found out FOR SURE that you can watch your cable tv
from anywhere in the world using a Sony Vaio. And being that I love
to watch tv, Sony Vaio is SOLD. I plan on getting my Sony Vaio within
the next 3 months because it is rather expeensive. It's like $2,000
But using the Sony Vaio's location base free digital tv tuner, you can
pick up your Directv, or your cable tv channels on the plane, on the
Amtrak train or on the Greyhound bus. TOTALLY AWESOME DUDE.
I must have a Sony Vaio. Plus Sony has so many other awesome
features. It is a multimedia powerhouse. Anyway as to the universal
battery, I will look into what you are saying and see if it will drain my
Sony Vaio power battery. I will call Sony Vaio and ask them and I will
ask the universal battery companies and I will go into the notebook
forums and I will get back to you with the results whether it be good
or bad
Anyway today is Wed Feb 6, 2008 and I am still in the elementary
school that I worked today. I took the kids out to the park and one
of them stepped in horse manuer. Eww. All the kids were laughing at
here. What a naturally beutiful red head little girl she is. Anyway
I helped her wiped off that smelly manuer. But the class was mediocre
today. I will be leaving within the next 5 minutes. My week was ok
yesterday was ok. And I think I am getting to know god a little better
which I think is a good thing. I am trying and hopefully once I get to
know god, hopefully this SA and Agoraphobia will be gone. What a
beutiful day it is today. It's like 80degrees here. Nice and humid.
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I'm liking the HP 17" laptop. Though it'll probably have similar battery life problems to the Qosmio series. Laptops wern't really designed to run desktop style hardware for a long time on batteries.
Considering the ... rather unique nature of how the battery on the Qosmio is set up, it's probably not going to work too well with the universal Laptop Battery. But I'm none too sure - I haven't a clue how it works. ^_^
And finding replacement parts for these super-laptops is no easy feat. I had to get my dad to do a bit of a DIY fix on my charger lead, after it shorted out and set the wire on fire ( We had a power surge. ), so until I manage to find an adequate replacement, I have to risk life, limb and bed linen with using it, hoping it won't spark at the joiner.
You can't use Universal adaptors with most super-laptops either, as they drain so much power that they'll drain the voltage control unit of power, so the charging is very intermittant, and next to useless for charging in use.
I hope you're doing a bit better now than your blog seems to be saying lately.
Hi guys hi everyone today is Wed Feb 13, 2008
My week went ok gosh I guess I've been a little busy like yah
I've been busy watching AMERICAN IDOL. Yeah holla if you love
American Idol!
I LOVE AMERICAN IDOL
I LOVE AMERICAN IDOL
I LOVE AMERICAN IDOL
Anyway my girl that I personally picked from the auditions
Carly Smith HAS MADE IT TO THE TOP 24 TONIGHT.
Yeah Carly Smith my girl made it and I going to tell you the truth
I am not blown away by white singers. I'm impressed by some
white singers but not blown away or give a standing ovation kind
of thing. But with Carly Smith, OH MY GOD, this girl can blow
She can really really sing. I am rooting for Carly Smith and I always
know how to pickem. Carly Smith is that white girl with all the tattoos
all over her arm and she is also the Tattoo Artist who works in a tattoo parlor
but this girl can blow in other words this girl can really really
sing. She is my favorite singer and I predicted that she will make it to
the top 24 I am now predicting that she will make it to the top 12 and now I
am predicting again that she will win American Idol or at least make
it to the top 3 which is pretty damn awesome. Watch Anyway guys
please watch American Idol next week Feb 19, 2008 at 8pm on the
FOX channel. NOT FOXnews just the regular FOX channel. And
guys PLEASE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE for Carly Smith
My favorite guy is David Hernandez Michael Johns. Excellent guys
So please don't forget to vote guys ok thanks
Lets see, I am still trying to contemplate which Sony Vaio to buy
I want the color vaio the red or the pink but then I want it to be
a 17 inch wide screen. Oh well I am still trying to contemplate but
in the mean time, I think I had a breakthrough today, My mind is
not going east west north and south anymore. Well I should say
I had a breakthrough today. I somewhat heard the voice of GOD
while I was praying. It was a comforting encouragement to my spirit
I'm still not a christian or anything but you do what you have to do
to feel better about yourself. And the bible says come unto me all
ye that labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest. So this
word is for everybody both christian and non-christians
Oh well i felt better. Now where will I work tomorrow? Hmmm
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), so until I manage to find an adequate replacement, I have to risk life, limb and bed linen with using it, hoping it won't spark at the joiner. 