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Depressed4life · Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2008 3:07 am Post subject: ..

I don't want to be 20 for what? to be depressed and anxious and have a fukked up family. I just want to die.

elizabeth86 · Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2008 6:10 am Post subject:

How do you know things won't get better? Do you plan on going to college/university after school? If so, and depends where you are, you can move away from your parents and live on campus. Otherwise, you can get a fulltime job and move out. If your parents tell you you HAVE to go to college.. Well, realistically, you're an adult and can make that decision for yourself.
Are you currently getting treatment for your anxiety? If not, then definately seek treatment. Most usually start working after about a month or 2. So you might start making friends when it starts working.

As I said earlier, you really need to realise that HORMONES are really affecting your outlook at the moment. It's a phase we all go through. And it gets better. Your brain is also changing at the moment, which affects your behaviours and attitudes. Scientific studies have been done on it.

Why don't you get a hobby? I know that sounds lame.. But when I was in school, I used to listen to music ALL the time. It really helped. Maybe you could try that? (preferrably none of that emo garbage haha). Otherwise, perhaps you like reading? Or movies? I was really into movies too. It is a great distraction. These are just some examples of some other things that you can take pleasure in, if you're not finding it in friends and family.

Remember you can always talk to us.

Depressed4life · Posted: Sun Feb 24, 2008 12:35 am Post subject: ...

I just know things won't get better. I haven't planned nothing for college because i am not interested in going although i am going to attend it. I have no energy for anything, no desire to live, no desire to breath, no desire to walk, no desire to go outside and deal with people. I listen to music all day and nothing changes. I am the same depressed/anxious waste of sh.it that i am. I am so tired that i don't even care, i will most likely be a bum in the streets starving when i am 20. I am not looking toward the future at all, so i don't even waste my time planning. How stupid and lame was i for thinking back then that i would be happy and change things, and look at me? Every day it gets worst. I called a psychologist but i backed off. I don't want to go out of my house, i hate people.

gh1234 · Newbie User Joined: Feb 17, 2008 Posts: 16

i know you're in distress but look at it this way.... there are many people out there that would die to have your life.. i'm not kidding! you're lucky you have parents and is able to go to school then college, you're lucky you have a home. There are many people out there that are starving, have no parents or friends, really poor, and all that other stuff which are bad and they would not ever think so negatively like you are right now.. so just try and cheer up... try and concentrate on things you are good at or makes you feel good about yourself.. if u can't do that then do something enjoyable. Just imagine that you are the lucky ones, try to improve your life by exercising.. being more social. And remember, there are always people that want your life.

Depressed4life · Posted: Sun Feb 24, 2008 3:22 am Post subject: ..

I am sorry perhasp i sound very annoying but i can't do it. People would die to have my life, i bet not. So what if i have a home i rather be poor and starving and happy. My life is garbage, i am a robot basicly. I don't care about education because in school i had a lot a lot a lot of bad times with ppl bothering me and being bullies and stuff. I hate my life, and my parents, i hate them. How i wish i wasn't born and the bi.tch of my mother should had aborted me. I don't like her, its her fu.cking fault that i am depressed. I hate both of my parents, when one day they get old, i am not going to feed them, i will let them starve. My mother could asked her 3 other daughters to help her since she love them so much, although they are in their 30s she works hard for them and not for me. All she does is called her stupid native country and talk sh.it and i hate her family those f hypocrites. When i visit them they try to control me and get me in trouble with the bi.tch of my mother and my mom BELIEVES EVERYTHING THEY SAY. I barely have any clothes and those ppl have more clothes than me, i go to school with my pants that are fuking ripping off in the middle and she knows and she doesn't care. Why she has to send everything to her stupid family? I hope all of them burn in hell, they also contributed to my damn depression because my mom is like hypnotize by them, she sends them clothes, food and money whenever they ask. One of her daughters stole so much money from my mother, and she didn't even said anything to her and neither did her family over there but if it was me, my mom would had disown me. I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHO THE HELL WOULD WANT TO HAVE MY LIFE? I CAN'T TALK TO PPL IN SCHOOL, PPL MAKE ME MAD AND IRRITATED SO I JUST IGNORED THEM.
MY PARENTS...SHOULD I SAY WHAT PARENTS? THEY DON'T LISTEN TO ME, THEY DON'T GIVE A SH.IT ABOUT ME. ALL THEY FUC.KING CARE IS THAT I ACT LIKE A SAINT SO THE PPL WON'T TALK ABOUT US AND SO THAT THEY CAN THINK WE ARE A GOOD FAMILY PLEASE...I DON'T EVEN SPEAK TO MY FATHER AND HE LIVES IN THE SAME HOUSE. MY MOM TOLD ME THAT I WOULD HAVE NO FUTURE, THAT I WOULD BE A CRIMINAL AND SELL DRUGS IN THE FUTURE, AND THAT SHE SHOULD HAD NEVER HAD ME...SHES RIGHT IN THAT PART. WHO WOULD LIKE TO HAVE MY FUC.KED UP PARENTS BECAUSE I WILL TRADE THEM NOW!!