Hey guys whats doin? Today is Wed January 20, 2008
I am struggling in my mind right now. I am learning to change
my pattern of thinking according to many self help books and
inspirational shows. They say if you change your thinking, you
change your life. So I am learning to change my thought pattern
Like for example, lots of times I be thinking about stuff that happened
at work and if in my mind I think somebody had an attitude with me
although that may just be an illusion in my mind, then I would think
about that incident and rehearse in my mind over and over what I
should have said to that person. So in a situation like this, when
these thoughts come in my mind about people, I rebuke it and
change what I am thinking about. I am learning this and believe
me, it's not that easy BUT WITH THAT SAID, IT GETS EASIER
EACH AND EVERYDAY so long as you keep shunning the wrong
thoughts.
Anyway, American Idol is on and the girls knocked it out the park
tonight. Well my girl Carly Smith was alright tonight but I am still
voting for her. I think that she chose the wrong song. Sometimes
it's just the wrong song choice. I'm also going to vote for Asia, the
girl that lost her father 2 days before the American Idol audition
because she sang great tonight. Amanda Overmyer, the rocker
nurse girl with the black and white hair was awesome tonight.
I love you amanda. So you guys the voting lines are now open
If you want to vote for Carly smith, please call 866-436-5712
The rocker girl is 866-436-5704. The little chinese asian looking
girl also was good her name is Ramiele her numbers are
866-433-5710
Ok guys, I am starving right now. please don't forget to vote tonight
Talk to ya tomorrow.
Hey guys, how's everything going.
Today is Friday, yayyyyyyyy Feb 29, 2008 and so far so good
My life today and a couple of days ago has been doing better
Although I had started pulling out my hair again, it wasn't so much
hair that I pulled out this time. I have pulled out less hair this time
So I believe I am getting better also my emotions has gotten a little
better also. I have decided to try and just put my trust in the savior
and just stop worrying about every gawd darn thing. Lately I have not
worried so much. I have noticed that inside of myself, I have heard
a voice if you will. Well not a loud audible voice but like a still small
voice saying, don't worry. Don't worry, don't worry. Just don't worry
about it. Everything will be alright. Or just don't worry about it,
if you get it you get it and if you don't you don't. I have been having
this emotion/voice speak to me and tell me but in anycase so far so
good. I am also looking into trying magnesium as a natural tranquilizer
I was told that Magnesium and Calcium taken in 1000mg daily, are
both natural tranquilizers that calms down your nervous system. So
in anycase, today I am at a school teaching a second grade and the
kids are fine. After I pick them up from lunch, I will give them recess
outside. Anyway, I am excited because 10dollarswonder just keeps on
cycling my positions and I just keep making a whole lot of 10 cents daily
it is amazing. For those of you who needs to join, please don't hesitate
do it now. http://10dollarswonder.com/?Prescious
Also exponential-earnings still pays also. Ok guys let me enjoy the rest
of my lunch here. I will be back soon. Toots
Well well well, I know I have been away for a while and trust me, I have
been going through some serious mind battles. I thought I was going to
die. I still feel a little hopeless here but something has gotta give really
really soon or else I don't know what's going to happen
Anyway Nijuichi-chan, you are truly hilarious, who cares. Sigh
Today is Wednesday March 12, 2008 and at the moment I am feeling
a little mediocre. But what has pumped me up is that American Idol
was hot last night. I mean that black guy Chikezie was awesome
last night. He rocked the house last night. So did Brooke White,
Carly Smithson, David Cook and Amanda Overmyer. Standing ovation
they deserve but much props goes to Chikezie the african guy.
He shocked the hell out of everybody including myself. If there are
any American Idol Fans here, please let me know what you thought
about last nights show and who did you vote for
Anyway, I have been so busy battling my demons and I just feel like
they are out to get me. The only real way I feel liberated is to shout
Halellujah or shout out to God then my mind feels at ease and I don't
feel afraid. I have alot of fear inside of me that needs to be
destroyed. I guess I just have to press my way. Um I am learning
that I need to love myself. And I tell you man, loving yourself is not
easy especially if you've been abused as a child growing up, and
it doesn't help much if you're also being abused by your peers. I
need to learn to take my mind off of unimportant things. My mind
is always on every damn thing. Like who's watching me. Who's
looking at me. What are people thinking about me. People don't
control me. People are not important. I need to start calling things
out with my mouth that be not as though they are.
Also, I am going to start to get serious and save up my money to
get some serious plastic surgery on my face so that can help me
feel better about myself. Prescious repeat after me, people are not
important. Well they are in a sense but not to the point that they are
ruling your fucking life. Controlling you with their eyes and shit.
No more. I do not care what people think. I love me. I love me.
I am special. I am all that. God loves me. Anyway I better keep
saying these affirmations and get them into my spirit and stop
the fucking madness people are bestowing on my life with their
eyes. Any words of encouragement is welcomed. PEACE
Ok stardog first off I do not have narcissistic personality disorder
trust me it's social anxiety plus I've been diagnosed but
thanks for your concern
Hey guys oh boy it's been a while. Today is Tuesday April 15, 2008
and my blog for today is I am coping and learning how to change
my thought patterns. I was told and introduced to the Secret or
the law of attraction. That we become what we think. So I am learning
power thoughts and mind pattern changes, becoming aware of my
thought patterns by the grace of god. I sware the other day I was
thinking something negative. At least to me I didn't think it was
negative but it was a regular thought pattern and somebody in
my spirit or in my mind said no, don't think like that. Change
from saying those little negative thoughts. For example it was
a thought that I said aloud to myself. For example: I was
rushing to work and I said to myself, I ain't going to make
it on time, I aint going to make it. And a voice spoke to me
and said, no it is little negative thoughts like that forms
your life whether good or bad. Anyway I am learning this and
I must say it seems to be working. Especially calling things out
that be not as though they were. Anyway that's what's been
happening with me. Well folks tonight is American Idol.
Wow what a shocker last week when they sent Michael Johns
home hey?
Anyway today I taught at a High School. Oh boy what a
mistake I made. But I need to learn to change my thoughts
and not pay attention to what my mind is saying about
people and that they are staring at me and laughing at me
And that they are saying something is wrong with her
My problem is now that I am learning how to change my
thought patterns, another problem is I need to learn to ignore
the devil or in other words, learn to ignore these thoughts
that keep thinking poeple are looking at me like something
is wrong with me. I need to say to myself well if peope
think something is wrong with me, then fine, they think
something is wrong with me. If people don't think that
something is wrong with me, then that is also fine too,
I Just need to learn to ignore the devil messing with my
mind like this using people to stare at me like something is
wrong with me. and I need to not care and just accept
myself just the way I am with all my weirdness and
misunderstandings. and as long as I'm not hurting anybody
then if I'm weird, that's fine. If I shout that's fine. If I talk
to myself that's fine. As long as I'm not answering myself
Anyway guys American Idol starts in one hour. Check it out
and vote thanks
Hello everybody, haven't been here for a while. I've been very down and I've had some episodes but I'm still holding on. Well I got me a brand new SUV. A Chevy Ventura to be exact. But there's more to life than money. Like having someone and good self esteem and knowing god I think. Anyway I just came to keep it short and informative. Till later
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