How do people live like this

lonelylilly · Newbie User Joined: Mar 24, 2008 Posts: 5

damn this life is just getting to be to hard. the pain that surrounds these panic attacks are getting to much to bear. Each time I have another one I can not help but think that I am going to die from my heart exploding. I know that I am not alone and there are many people that suffer far worse then I do but I still feel alone. I feel like the whole world is laughing at me everytime I have a panic attack. I imagine that people say look at the strange woman acting like she can't breath. I just can not stop complaining about it. I'm not sure what to do. I'm trying to be positive and not a drain on the people around me but the harder I try the worse my symptoms become. God help cause cause lord knows no body elts can.[/quote]

joni · Newbie User Joined: Apr 14, 2008 Posts: 2

I know how you feel, I feel the same way. Alone and scared and like you will never feel normal again. I have heart problems on top of my panic attacks so when my heart pounds and skips it adds another layer of panic for me. I'm always afraid something is really wrong with me. And my husband is so tired of hearing me complain. He doesn't even try to understand. He just tells me it's in my head and I'm doing this to myself. That may be true but I can't make it stop. If I could why would I choose to live in this hell. I just want to raise my son and feel like a normal person. Each day this gets harder for me too. I am pregnant now and that has seemed to make my attacks worse. I understand where you're coming from and I hope that maybe it will help to to know that you are not alone. Im right there with you.

ktea · Posted: Wed Apr 16, 2008 6:02 am Post subject:

hey. I have panic attacks when I'm around large groups of people, which basically limits me from doing anything. =[ I shut myself up in the house. The last time I actually went out with anyone was 2 years ago.. and I'm only 15.
having SA sucks. I wish i knew someone who has sa in real life. my family makes me feel like a freak. sorry im rambling. :] I really feel for you and I hope things get better!!

oXyKevn · Posted: Mon May 12, 2008 7:04 pm Post subject:

you are definately not alone, i have a heart murmur and every time i feel the slightest bit of panic, THE SLIGHTEST, it creates a whole other world of insanity and panic in my mind, feels like the world is ending and im having a heart attack, and believe me panicking ontop of panicking is what defines a panic attack, it is in your mind, and my GF does not understand, she says 'its all in your head, get over it'. i feel so embarrassed everytime i get one, which is almost everyday now but oddly enough i dont feel i have a social phobia, im not shy, so why do i have these reaccuring panic attacks!? mine usually hit me when im doing abolutely nothing such as watching tv.......i am currently taking 10mg valiums as needed, as soon as i feel one coming on, you better believe that i chew up a valium ASAP, which isn't good i know, but i can't get over them without it, i just can't. hopefully one day.....just know that you are not alone, i have 2 kids, and having all these disorders makes life a living hell, i do know. and i hope that we can all get through this someday, there is help out there.....