@misternobody
Admit that you very often think about killing all good well having people around you. Or you want them to suffer as much as you do + as much as you already have. I can tell that I do time to time, and I think this is quite common for people like us. I see myself, stabbing pretty military knives in the hearts of people, cutting their head of with battle axe, shooting them with automatic grenade launcher or seeing a spinning buzzsaw blade fly through the air like a bullet and slicing peoples' head off.
_________________ Stop making kids.
Compulsory sterilization is good.
More security. Less freedom.
The word "cowardly" is often used as another word for effectivly.
Last edited by Kien on Thu Mar 27, 2008 9:11 pm; edited 1 time in total
YOU ARE DOING IT COMPLETELY WRONG!! You have a completely distorted vision of reality and that self commiseration won't get you nowhere either. First you say you're completely invisible, then you say everybody looks at you when you go shopping, how realistic is this?
First, recognize that your perception of reality is biased by AS;
Second, fuel some self esteem and assertiveness;
Then we can talk about changing life.
1, Your a cock
2, Your a cock
3, Who are you to tell him he's doing it wrong? He's been doing this for 45 years. You talk like building your self esteem is easy. When life kicks you that many times in the teeth I can imagine its extremely hard to recover from it.
1, From my perspective, we're all doing it wrong. Except some are more aware than others.
2, I didn't say it is easy to build self esteem.
3, Who am I? No one. My opinion is worth the value one grants to it. Just like yours.
@misternobody
Admit that you very think about killing all good well having people around you. Or you want them to suffer as much as you do + as much as you already have. I can tell that I do, and I think this is quite common for people like us. I see myself, stabbing pretty military knives in the hearts of people, cutting their head of with battle axe, shoot them auotmatic grenade launcher or see a spinning buzzsaw blade fly through the air like a bullet slicing peoples' head off.
I feel amused and at the same time worried. Should I feel worried?
@misternobody
Admit that you very think about killing all good well having people around you. Or you want them to suffer as much as you do + as much as you already have. I can tell that I do, and I think this is quite common for people like us. I see myself, stabbing pretty military knives in the hearts of people, cutting their head of with battle axe, shoot them auotmatic grenade launcher or see a spinning buzzsaw blade fly through the air like a bullet slicing peoples' head off.
I feel amused and at the same time worried. Should I feel worried?
You should not feel amused. Getting thoughts about killing people is not something one should be amused for.
_________________ Stop making kids.
Compulsory sterilization is good.
More security. Less freedom.
The word "cowardly" is often used as another word for effectivly.
Maybe u have been playing too much videogames ..kidding
Kien wrote:
@misternobody
Admit that you very often think about killing all good well having people around you. Or you want them to suffer as much as you do + as much as you already have. I can tell that I do time to time, and I think this is quite common for people like us. I see myself, stabbing pretty military knives in the hearts of people, cutting their head of with battle axe, shooting them with automatic grenade launcher or seeing a spinning buzzsaw blade fly through the air like a bullet and slicing peoples' head off.
_________________ You can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings
You can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything
Nope, but I play alot. I have a big interrest in weapons. May it be battle axes, modern knives, carbines, aircraft mounted gattling cannons, white phoshporus grenades or prototype railguns.
Seriously I feel that I'm sick in my head when I get these thoughts. :<
_________________ Stop making kids.
Compulsory sterilization is good.
More security. Less freedom.
The word "cowardly" is often used as another word for effectivly.
Nope, but I play alot. I have a big interrest in weapons. May it be battle axes, modern knives, carbines, aircraft mounted gattling cannons, white phoshporus grenades or prototype railguns.
Seriously I feel that I'm sick in my head when I get these thoughts. :<
It's just an interest. Hardly something to worry about. People have been using weapons for centuries.
Hey Mr. Nobody - Been there myself. It is horrible. You obviously have an excruciating life right now. You summarized it really well. You seem very in-touch with your feelings about your situation, and you make your thoughts very clear. A lot of people in your spot are in denial and don't see it as clearly as you do.
I actually feel a lot of optimism in your post. While things seem bad now, it usually takes a person to hit rock bottom before they really take the action it takes to change their situation. You seem pretty near there.
You say that the mail is the only thing you look forward to. What else?
And I like the person who pointed out the fact that you feel invisible yet you feel like people notice you in a negative way. Its important to realize that your reasoning is not making complete sense right now and that there may be some other discrepancies in your logic.
I can already spot another discrepancy...
...when adults are creeped out by someone or don't like someone, they almost always simply AVOID that person.
...when adults like someone or want to like someone they almost always act really friendly, smile a lot, laugh a lot, make jokes, or MAKE FUN OF that person.
You said you get made fun of a lot.
Did you know that the act of making fun of someone is actually a preamble to creating a relationship? A lot of people don't realize this. MAKING FUN OF someone is actually a basic component to FLIRTING.
You might have more admirers than you think - you might just need to learn how to interpret the signals they are sending you...
the way i build my self esteem is first by faking it. pretending like i'm a confident person and forcing myself to not care about what others think of me. honestly if you think about it ... why do we care so much??? if you don't have confidence, fake it. at least once to see what it's like. after awhile you start believing it, and its great!
to help myself become a more optomistic/happy person, i write 5 things that im grateful for everyday. its hard at first and seems pointless, but if you dedicate yourself to it ... make it part of your morning rutine or something, you train your mind to think positively. Its TRUE! its like a workout for the brain.
of course its hard, but its not impossible. changing the way your mind is wired takes years but you have to start somewhere - and that's definitely where the problem is. if you think you're nobody than you will be = self fufilling prophecy. The mind is a powerful tool, you can control your own life - its just a matter of realizing it TAKES TIME and ISN'T easy. you either sink or swim and only you can change yourself. (I don't mean to sound like a crazy motivational speaker, but this stuff works for me.)
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