Posted: Sun Apr 20, 2008 11:53 am Post subject: worries about anything
I associate OCD with compulsions, I don't have them, or at least they are not the ones that yuo usually see described as a symptom of OCD.
But I do worry about everything.
This worries came from nowhere, they are not present all the time, they usually come when I'm alone and have a lot of time to think.
Some of the "stupid" worries I've experienced the past few months are:
- am I schizophrenic?, I feel like I've met so many new people that some of them may be unreal (which is not the case, everyone is real, but the thought just come)
- do I have a "worrier" personality hidden in myself?, cause anything negative information I got that may apply to myself, later on will show up as a worrier telling me that I may have that condition or disease.
- Since I find out that usually negative thoughts come while I'm with myself, I started to keep myself busy doing new things (like sports, meeting new people, etc), and also, if I'm alone, I go to internet to try to figure out what's wrong with me. Could this be a rare form or compulsion?
- This worries are not affecting my social life that much since, when I'm socializing they don't come, but affects my productivity at work, when sometimes I'm alone.
- My anxiety goes very high for moments during the day, and this happens when worries that I know may be stupid, come. When I'm talking about this issues, or doing something that keep my mind busy and concentrated in other people, or in something fun, I don't get this worries i.e., I'm not anxious.
- I'm actually going to psychotherapy, my therapist says that I'm having a inner personality conflict since I'm forcing myself to do a lot of changes (habits, lifestyle, personality) in a short time. Since I was kind of social phobic, few months ago I decided to change it radically, and I've been meeting new people, doing new stuff that I wouldn't because of worries and laziness. Although I'm not sure, sometimes I really feel paranoid. He says that this is a usual manifestation of my previous "self" trying to come back and take control of my life. But I don't know, this last months I've been really feeling like going crazy.
I actually kind of do the same thing...I notice that whenever I have free time my thoughts/worries run rapidly through my head...but anyway it almost sounds like you might have generalized anxiety disorder (because apparently you seem to worry that much). I actually at first thought I had that because I just am always thinking about random stuff, but my therapist decided thats its ocd instead because I dont really worry a lot, I just think too much (and I also have some ocd compulsions)
Hey... I have exactly the same problem as you.. But when you "think" too much, are you thinking about the things that are already in the past? I think wayy too much about the things that happened in the past, rather than the things that are gonna happen in the future.. If I think too much about stuff in the past (eg. I was scared that this classmate of mine MIGHT have done something bad to me), is that OCD?
You hit the nail right on the head.. I am terrified to be alone and idle, because the scariest thoughts pop into my head.. They are so far out there, and have no merit.. Yesterday for example, I was driving to the mall, actually not feeling too bad, then all of a sudden I was afraid to breath.. I became acutely aware of every breath I took, and this brought on a very disturbing , anxiety filled afternoon.. I have been suffering with these symptoms for 12 years now, and sometimes wonder how I have made it..I was diagnosed with Panic Anxiety Disorder, but this goes beyond that.. I believe it to be OCD, and am still struggling with the idea of taking medication.. I am afraid if I dont, I will never have another happy day as long as I live.. While other people look forward to the weekend, I dread it.. I hide this illness very well, but my life is very lonely.. Let me know if you take any medication, and if it helps. Peace be with you..
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