Joined: Apr 28, 2008 Posts: 39 Location: in the center of the moon that glides above Detroit, Michigan
Posted: Mon Apr 28, 2008 9:57 am Post subject: A Lonely Girl
Hi everybody here at Social Phobia World! I came here simply because I would like to speak with people who have social phobia/anxiety like I do. Yep, I used to think I was the only person in the whole wide world like this because I don't know of such people in person. I certainly wasn't born this way. I guess this disorder somehow grew into me when I began my teen years. I started to view people I don't know well as sneaky, fork-tongued devils that would always look down at me. The people in my 'imaginary world' are much easier to be with.
As of now, the only friends I have is my 2nd oldest bro and an online friend in Australia(but we don't talk much). So yeah I'm alone all of the time because of my supposed AVPD. No, I haven't been diagnosed with this, but I am certain that I have this. I might have other disorders too, like schizoid personality disorder, paranoid personality disorder, and schizotypal personality disorder. So I assume that I am a remote schizoid.
I am 19 years old, unemployed, and the only time I leave my home is to visit my therapist or doctor. Basically, all I do is eat, sleep(alot), watch t.v.(usually spongebob), play videogames,listen to music from time to time, and read. I don't actually enjoy these 'activities,' its just a way to 'escape' my harsh reality. So I do lead a rather dull, dull life. I took medicine like abilify, zoloft, and seroquel to ease my anxiety and depression. But the only thing I received in return was dizziness and heavy chest pain. I am currently on no medication, but I would like to take more effective medication in the future. I hope that one day, this illness will vanish like a ghost and I will be able to lead a normal, happy life.
The only thing I like about my personality is my introversion and independence.
_________________ The Lone Wolf's Cry
Lonely now, as I always was, I cry the lonely cry of a wolf. -By Nadine Mondrae,age 13
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I came here simply because I would like to speak with people who have social phobia/anxiety like I do. Yep, I used to think I was the only person in the whole wide world like this because I don't know of such people in person. I certainly wasn't born this way. I guess this disorder somehow grew into me when I began my teen years. I started to view people I don't know well as sneaky, fork-tongued devils that would always look down at me. The people in my 'imaginary world' are much easier to be with.
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