Posted: Tue May 06, 2008 1:32 pm Post subject: friends and relationships
Its been so difficult for me to make friends and if i had some i almost avoid them,not because i dont want them or because i dont feel ok with them-i feel great with them-but i dont know i feel that it doesnt matter anymore.This happens also with boys.I like someone but if he likes me i push him away.The only thing that i dont have problem is when i write and dont have to see someone in the eyes.Its lonely and miss having someone near and some other times i just say its ok been alone.I m in college ,i have a friend,we talk but its not like i used be.I m not the person who wanted to go out anymore...Just home-college,but friends?
I lost real friendship in teenage. Since then I hardly spend any time with friends at all. Only at one or 2 rare events. And even there I'm more or less seen as the 3rd wheel.
The only person I often talk to is Blonderedhead here at SPW.
_________________ I wish we could see into the future of peoples lives when they are born. Then we could kill all babies who's going to be bad people. Robbers, bullying kids, murderers etc. Just put a gun at the baby's head.
my friends called round tonight, but i made up some bull so i didn't have to talk to them. i really need my friends round me now, but it's so hard to open up to them. i seem to do the same thing, it's easier to push people away than to let them in, thats how it seems now, but i know it's wrong, i just cant' take the step to let someone in 100%.
_________________ "Fear is that little darkroom where negatives are developed."
I have one person right now that I would consider a close friend, but we're definitely not nearly as close as we used to be. About a year ago she left to take part in an au pair program in another country. Even if she were available to do things with, I would avoid her for the same mysterious reason you cite.
The only person I feel pretty comfortable going out in public with is my boyfriend, and he lives in another town; so, I don't get to see him often. Woe.
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