Argh.

toothpastekisses · Posted: Sat May 10, 2008 7:43 pm Post subject: Argh.

So basically, it's my 18th tomorrow. A time for celebration and fun, not crying and anxiety. I should be out having fun with my mates tonight but noone's mentioned anything about going out, and because of my effing SAD I'm too embarrased to initiate anything. I foolishly pretended that I was going out for the night earlier but this backfired when my mum found out I wan't meeting anyone and I chickened out of going out alone so ended up at home. Eek. Now I have to face my bloody family asking me what I did for my birthday and comparing me to my cousin whose birthday is today, who has a "fabulous" social life (or so she makes out). "She's going on holiday with all her friends and boyfriend soon as well, don't you want to go on holiday with your friends? why haven't you got yourself a boyfriend yet, what's WRONG with you?.." blah blah blahh. I dunno what to do with myself. Ffs, I'm so sad.

4seasons · Advanced User Joined: Apr 12, 2007 Posts: 370

Yup, I've been there, know how you feel. I just turned 18 a few months ago and where I live 18 is legal drinking age. But I stayed home just like any other night. I actually still haven't been to a bar haha. Don't get me started on the girlfriend thing, whenever someone asks that question "do you have a girlfriend yet" or makes a statement about me not having one I feel like crawling in a hole. Hang in there, everything will work out, just relax.

I'm starting to accept this as who I am now and accepting it as my personality, I'm just a very shy guy. I don't know if that helps, just go with the flow, do whatever, don't worry about other people.