WTH?

Sikwitit · Newbie User Joined: May 13, 2008 Posts: 20

Alright i made an attempt back in 2004 to get out of my social anxiety, an it worked!!! I mean i had a job at a department store so i had to talk to people an answer questions etc...An that's wher i met my first real g/f after that i got another job at a call center talking to poeple every day in 2005.

I was still quiet but i dunno talking to people you dont know on the phone is easy,anyway i had 3 dates 2 g/f from that job in about two years time.

I even moved in with my g/f for about a year didnt work out she saw how boring i actually was we never went too clubs or anything movies/dinner pretty much.

I think she made me run back into my turtle shell i didnt feel comfortable with her she cared about me so much but i felt like she was just bringing me down when i was trying to climb the ladder.

Lets just say i was the 10 an she was the -1 but i wasnt attracted to her looks, it was her personality i lowerd my standards none of my sisters liked her they thought i was too good an could do better but i didnt care.

An i was doing a pretty dam good job till i met her. Now im back to square one i have 2 girls numbers from my current job an im asked constantly why the hell am im so quiet "the girls gave me their number i never asked for it im a wuss Sad

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I know i can be that fun,funny,confident guy im 22 now but when i was about 19-20 i said f-it an just didnt care i went to the mall an just started hitting on this girl in the Lids store she was beautiful i eventually got her number even though she already had a b/f.

I mean i went into that situation thinking she's just gonna blow me off when i actually came out on top it's crazy.

From this day on damit im gonna say whatever i want loud so everybody can hear me an i dont care who doesnt like it.

Im tired of somebody asking a question an me knowing the answer but not saying anything, im tired of just going with what everybodyelse wants, im tired of being walked on like my opnion doesnt matter.

Your gonna listen to me damit weather you like it or not.

Im gonna talk so much their gonna wish i was quiet like i used to be watch....