IVE RUN INTO PROBLEMS NE IDEAS 2 HELP ME?

QUEEN_SJO

OK IM GOING 2 TRY 2 EXPLAIN EVERYTHING IT IS VERY DIFFICULT TRY 2 KEEP UP WITH WHT IM TRYIN 2 SAY HERE
OK I HAVE OCD. I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH IT WHEN I WAS 9 I AM NOW 19. I WAS PRESCRIBED ZOLOFT 4 IT,STARTED @ 50MG. A FEW YEARS LATER WHEN MY HOROMONES CHANGED CUZ OF PUBERTY THEY UPPED IT 2 100MG. IN HIGH SCHOOL MY HOROMONES CHANGED AGAIN CAUSING THE ZOLOFT 2 NOT WORK AS WELL AGAIN SO I WENT UP 2 150MG. JUST LAST YEAR MY DAD DIED FROM AN OVERDOSE OF HEROIN AND MY OCD GOT WORSE SO MY DR. PUT ME ON 200MG. WELL I JUS RECENTLY FOUND OUT THT I AM 3 MONTHS PREGNANT, AND YES MY HOROMONES CAUSED A LOT OF MY OCD SYMPTOMS 2 COME BACK AGAIN. WELL MY DR. TOOK ME OFF MY ZOLOFT BCUZ ITS NOT GOOD 4 THE BABY. NOW SINCE I BEEN ON MEDS I HAV BEEN LIVING A PRETTY NORMAL LIFE AND BEEN ABLE 2 TELL AND TALK 2 PPL ABOUT MY OCD OPENLY AT SCHOOL AND NOW WORK. EVEN THO IVE HAD 2 ALSO COPE WITH ADHD AND AN ABUSIVE MOTHER, AS WEL AS RAISING MY 2 YOUNGER BROTHERS WHO R CURRENTLY 10 AND 13, AND ALSO RAISING MY 2 YEAR OLD CUZN BCUZ HIS MOM LEFT HIM WITH ME BCUZ SHE DES METH AND WE HAVNT HERD 4RM HER IN A LONG TIME. BUT IVE GROWN OUT OF ADHD GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL AND AM NOW A CNA @ A CONVALESCENT CARE CENTER. IM STILL RAISING THE 3 BOYS ALTHO MY MOM IS STARTING 2 HELP OUT NOW. I LOVE MY JOB MOST PPL FIND IT VERY STRESSFULL BUT IT HELPS ME 2 DESTRESS. ALSO I 4GOT 2 MENTION IVE GONE THRO COCAINE ADDICTION, AND WITH OCD PPL HAV ANXIETY PROBLEMS AND MINE WORSENED WITH THE COCAINE. BUT LIKE I SAID EVRYTHNG HAS BEEN MANAGABLE AND IVE WORKED THRO IT EVEN THO I ALWAYS STILL HAD OCD SYMPTOMS BUT IT WAS EASIER 2 HIDE AND DEAL WITH SO I CULD FUNCTION NORMALLY. WELL NEWAYS, NOW ITS ALL COMING BACK WITHOUT MY MEDS. ALTHO I NOTICE I CAN HANDLE IT BETTER THAN WHEN I WAS YOUNGER. NOW @ MY JOB THERE R GROUPS WITH ABOUT 10 RESIDENTS EACH, DEPENDING IF WE R FULLY STAFFED OR NOT, AND WE HAV 3 GROUPS IN FRONT, 3 IN THE MIDDLE, AND 4 IN THE EAST WING. I AM STILL A FLOATER WHICH MEANS I GO 2 WHATEVER GROUP IS AVAILABLE. MOST CNAS DONT GET THEIR OWN GROUPS 4 ABOUT A YR, ALSO DEPENDING ON THE OTHER CNAS QUITTING GETTING FIRED OR ON LEAVE. NEWAYS THE RESIDENTS IN FRONT R ALWAYS CHANGING, CUZ MOST R THERE 4 REHAB SO THEY COME FROM HOSPITAL OR HOME TIL THEY GET STRONG ENUFF THEY STAY 4RM A COUPLE WKS 2 A FEW MONTHS. THEN THEY GO HOME, DIE, OR FIND OUT THEY HAV 2 STAY PERMANANTLY AND GET MOVED 2 A ROOM IN THE MIDDLE OR EAST. SO THE MIDDLE AND EAST R PRETTY REGULAR THINGS DONT CHANGE SO MUCH. IDK IF ITS BCUZ OF MY OCD OR WHAT BUT I DONT LIKE 2 MUCH CHANE. I NEED A ROUTINE EVEN WITH MEDS, I LIK THNGS 2 B PREDICTABLE BUT NOT OVERLY. SO WHN IM IN THE FRONT I TEND 2 GET ANXIETY ATTACKS AND MESS UP A LOT AND B STREESD THE WHOLE SHIFT. IN THE MIDDLE AND EAST IM OK. IM RARELY INT THE FRONT OR MIDDLE THO. SO THE EAST WING IS WHERE IM COMPLETLY COMFORTABLE. I GET ALONG WITH ALL THE OTHER CNAS BUT SINCE IM USUALLY IN THE EAST I AM CLOSER WITH THOSE CNAS AND ALSO HANG OUT WITH THEM OUTSIDE OF WORK. SO U GET THE IDEA OF Y I LIKE BEING IN THE EAST. WELL NOW WITHOUT MY MEDS BEING MOVED 2 THE FRONT 2DAY WAS HORRIFIC 4 ME. I FINALLY CONVINCED ANOTHR CNA AND MY SUPERVISOR 2 SWICH ME 2 THE EAST. OF COURSE 2MOROR IM SUPPOSE 2 B ON THT GROUP IN THE FRONT 2MORO 2. NOW IM HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME RITE NOW BCUZ OF MY OCD AND NO MEDS BUT IM ABLE 2 STILL DO GOOD WORK IN THE EAST BCUZ I NO IT AND ITS LIK HOME 2 ME. WHT SHULD I DO? WHT IF I CANT GO W/O MY MEDS WHT ABOUT THE BABY? WITHOUT MY JOB I HAV NOTHING I NEED IT 2 MAKE MONEY 4 MY FAMILY AND 2 DESTRESS ME AND IT MAKES ME FEEL HAPPY AND LIK IM WORTHY AND CAN ACHIEVE SUMTHNG . IM AT A LOSS. Exclamation

oXyKevn · Posted: Tue May 13, 2008 2:38 pm Post subject:

first off, you DO NOT HAVE TO TYPE IN ALL CAPS LOCK! i feel like your screaming at me....... second my GF was on zoloft the entire time she was pregnant and i have a beautiful baby girl, im sure there are risks but if the benefits of zoloft outwiegh the risks then do what you need to do! if you can go without zoloft then thats great too.

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