Joined: Oct 13, 2007 Posts: 434 Location: 20-f-u.s.
Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2008 11:36 pm Post subject:
I feel sad and very alone. I wanna get off the computer and do something... anything. but then id feel even more alone. At least on here i can chat to people.. or at least watch them chat... ha, thats lame
And ALSO!.. my stupid playlist is being a bitch. I put a song on there thats working... but when I play is on the playlist it WONT WORK!
and omg i thought i just saw someone walk past my door. no ones here but me. im just super paranoid and im trippin. it skuuured me
oh damn just found something else to bitch about.... lonely is spelt wrong on my avatar... damnit
I went to the O2 festival yesterday & was actually having a really good time, even got on a stage & played guitar hero in front of loads of people. Then as usual I started getting too drunk & letting myself go, dancing & clapping in front of my mate & his gf's mates, I wasn't doing anything different from anyone else, but I saw my mates gf laughing at me, dunno if its because I'm not the sort of person who ever does anything like that, but today I can;t stop thinking about it. I stacked over a bin in front of loads of people as well where I was so drunk. I always say to myself that I won't drink too much but I always do
Joined: Nov 29, 2007 Posts: 51 Location: UK, Devon
Posted: Sun Jul 06, 2008 12:54 pm Post subject:
Im feeling very anxious today. tomorrow i am going to the dr to tell him i have SA and feel like im suffering from depression. i have never told anyone before, im scared he wont take me seriously.
also, when i need to give future emloyers any medical history from the Dr do they need to find out about my SA or can i keep it from them?
Though i feel rather fine right now(don't know why, actually), I've been feeling VERY angry all this damn weekend cause i am what i am and there doesn't seem to be any scape from being what i am, which will always make me fail in any important thing of life like job, love, friendship, social relations in general...
Joined: May 16, 2008 Posts: 76 Location: in the uk south west
Posted: Sun Jul 06, 2008 9:17 pm Post subject:
im feeling ok to be honest, recovering from the weekend, eating cheese on toast. dreading tomorrow as im on a mission to get bday presents and i do not want to venture to town
I am a bit proud of myself. I could have avoided going out this weekend, I was feeling very intimidated by the thought, but I got the courage to go to two parties anyway. It was a bit nerve-racking, particularly when some jerk started making fun of me within 10 seconds of meeting. I managed to stick around and not retreat home like I usually do, and ultimately had a pretty good time. So that's something, I guess?
i feel empty most of the time.like now i have nothing to do and i felt bored.yesterday i felt kinda angry and sad at the same times.i'm always scared at night.
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thanks.. hope your not feeling nervous no more sleepingbeauty
