Posted: Sat Aug 16, 2008 5:49 am Post subject: alcohol
do you feel like a more "normal" person when you get alcohol? I can interact with people when I`m drunk. It makes me feel like I`m just like anyone out there.
The most I have ever had to drink was a single bottle of Mike's Hard Lemonaide... Although I'm really small and I remember it being a large bottle, -not sure if it really was or it just seems that way looking back. Anyways, it didn't relax me at all... Actually I was standing there trying to talk to people and I ended up getting really dizzy from the alcohol but I was too embarrassed to tell anyone how I was feeling so I just tried to suck it up. I was so nervous that I was going to pass out or something. I was actually just thinking of this because now I get dizzy from panic attacks and medications, too, so maybe I'm prone to that...
I have never been puking drunk though. I never really had anyone to drink with and drinking by myself always seemed kind of pointless...
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Posted: Sun Aug 17, 2008 2:23 am Post subject:
A lot of times i get really self-conscious, and I worry to myself 'Am I doing alright? or am I too annoying? Am I opening up too much? Talking too much? Goofing around too much?'
I also get really really intense bad migraines when i drink sometimes.
Maybe that's the reason.
Sadly, yes, alchohol makes me feel less shy and selfconsience. It takes away the feeling of caring and all, so I just get talking and all and say whatever comes to my mind. I tend to be alightwieght though, and so people around me really find it amusing...plus they are all suprised. It's a bit embarising and sort of scares me, the fact that alchohol helps me so much. It makes me wonder how much it's the idea of drinking that helps me have an excuse and all or whatever it really does that to me. If that makes sense. It also makes me sad, the fact that everyone hears me talk when I'm drunk but not so much when I'm not. If I can do all that when I'm drunk, maybe if I can find away to get past the "blockage" maybe there is a way to help myself.
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