when was your first attack?

smokemorebud · Newbie User Joined: Sep 08, 2008 Posts: 5

my first panic attack happened to me in the 2nd grade when some nasty girl got sick three times in my classroom and i felt trapped. like i couldnt escape no matter what i did. my mom had to pull me out of the car just to get me to walk inside the school after that incident. Sad

when was your first attack and what was it like?

dottie · Expert User Joined: Sep 06, 2007 Posts: 523 Location: USA

11 y/o. anxiety attack during class. it was confusing, embarrassing, scary.

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incomplete_person · Newbie User Joined: Sep 03, 2008 Posts: 11

I wasn't aware of what a panic attack was growing up. I can't say much thought at all was going through my head. I've always been something of a loner. I would have little attacks like whether or not it would be wise to speak at a certain time in class. I was so concerned with embarrassing myself that I usually did it regardless because I wasn't really paying attention or I didn't care. Eventually I cared less and less.

So if you were to ask me what that was like, I would have to say it felt oppressive. I look back at my issues and how they effected me without me being aware of it and it makes me feel like I have less control over my body and mind than I think I do. But the way I figure it is that with that understanding I can be more careful and adjust... I read an article that asked you to list on paper all of the things you are not, and it occured to me then that I am not my body, I am not my emotions, and I am not my mind. I am simply an observer.

That is the difference between how I felt then and how I feel now.

Not sure if it's the direct answer you were looking for though... sorry. I'm just an incomplete person trying to figure things out.