Joined: Sep 14, 2008 Posts: 14 Location: Tyne and Wear, UK
Posted: Sun Sep 14, 2008 12:14 am Post subject:
Someone called me 'bones' last week. I'm really thin because of a rather serious illness that I have, that's the main reason I don't go out alongside my ugliness and lack of confidence.
The Good: Some underclassmen said that she liked how I dress and how I don't give a shit what others think about it.
The Bad: There's really not any plain bad; for me, comments are either quite good or incredibly bad.
The Ugly: When a girl was starting rumours about me "She's suicidal; her mom found a noose¬e in her room and frankly, I just wish she'd hurry up and do it."
With me it was anything slightly negative revolving around my appearance e.g. my big forehead. I used to get insanely paranoid by anything slightly negative. But the truth is my whole life ive been told by almost everyone that im so beautiful, look truely stunning but I used to not believe it. I would just dwell on the bad (often untrue) things people would tell me. And yes I do have a big forehead but so does Rihanna and shes smoking hot so I can live with it now.
I also had the is it a boy is it a girl thing even when I had short hair. I often used to get called young lady and that would make me feel so awkward especially when I was with family. I remember once when a cousin who was 2 had come over to our house and I got called a she by him! It was just my face used to be so pretty. Now at 18 I have a nice strong jawline so I can pull off my long hair without to much problem.
Last year, someone said to me, "You look like a pedophile."
I thought it was kind of funny, but I really began to worry if other people thought that when they looked at me.
When I was younger, I was riding my bicycle past someone, and as I passed by, I heard them call out to me "Hey faggot!"
That disturbed me and scared me! [I'm not gay, but I don't really have anything against the concept of a person being "gay."]
Already I was feeling reluctant to be outside going near people, and one of the few people who I passed by, decided to say something harsh to me. So, that made me regret deciding to ride my bike.
I see all the horrible things people have described in here! I feel fortunate now, because some of you seem to have been challenged a lot more by people than I have, especially when you seemed to have been younger and more vulnerable?
A lot of times, I've become afraid of what people "might" say/or what they might "potentially" think or say about me. My imagination gets worked up in a negative way, where I worry about what unpleasant things might be said to me. Even though I've usually been treated alright by people!
Some people on here said they've had people criticize how they grin a lot or laugh? I've only had people comment on that to me a few times, but In the past, I've worried that people "might" see me as a freak who's laughing strangely more than everyone else around.
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