screamed in front of over 100 people in the school gym when i was about 12. i was a tomboy. no one has had any reason to ask me that for years but it still hurts
There was a rumor that I looked down & up another girl. I was so shocked by what they said that I had a severe panic attack & nervous breakdown. Now, I'm afraid to even look at a person for fear of that rumor starting again. It's torture. I was a happy, outgoing person before they made up stuff about me. I'd give so much to go back... :c
Something that affects me but is not meant to be bad is "you're quiet, that's you.. you can't change who you are..." but the thing is I don't feel like I'm a quiet person or that's who I am, it's just that the outcome is quiet because I always feel awkward and worried about the what I say can be perceived in certain environments so it's sometimes best not to say anything at all! Or people say something that isn't meaningful enough in conversation that you could elaborate on i.e. random meaninglessness.
Then someone said to me that maybe it's because you happen to be in a place where you won't meet like-minded people who have anything in common with you... and in my situation at least, it's somewhat true in hindsight.
"you look anorexic" this hurt me cause im a guy, and I have a extreme large diet.
"your a terrorist" Im half Arab/Asian/Dutch and in my old school they maid fun of me because I looked really arab.
Than this guy felt bad that I was always isolating my self in lunch in high school everyday. The guy had good intentions but what he said maid me think a lot. He said "why do you sit here alone? You don't have any friends?
The problem on being "bullied" is that 1 offence is worth 1000 praises...
in the 8th grade a girl told me "you are ugly, are u gay?"
I was already very shy and unconfident, so i took it as a fuel to keep away from people. -- but i already had a social problem so i think it don't count.
The gay part was seriosly hard to me at the time, i already knew i wasn't the best looking guy ever - it's a fact - but gay i never had anything of homosexual (nothing against them)...
Most of the time people say bad thing to you because they're trying to cope with something bad that happened to them, or just to feels special with themselves.
I hope she forgot it, today i doubt i would reconigze her , i just remembered it to keep myself from getting unconstructive coments that people tell me so deep in my hearth.
Some little kid on a bus to my brother: "Your sister's *maaad* ugly!!"
In middle school my brother's friend wrote practically the same thing in my brother's yearbook.
Now I'm in college, but this guy asks me nearly everyday why I'm "so quiet" and that he "barely heard me say 50 words" and how I'm basically unnoticeable. I know it shouldn't bother me a lot, but it does, since he can't seem to stop reminding me.
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