Yes, I've always had the tendency to reject people before they even got the chance to reject me. When you're painfully shy or anxious life really has little meaning. In terms of meeting a partner, but also careerwise. What's the point of life if you constantly fear social interaction. Sometimes I wonder what I have ever done to deserve this terrible illness, fear of human beings that is.
Actually, yes. It has been some time though. When I was younger I remember two times I've done this.
I don't want to be like that any more though because I've realized that I'll never know what I missed out on.
When I was pretty young, probably around when I was 11 years old (I guess I just weren't mature enough yet) there was this cute girl that was always following me around. She often made sure I knew how she felt about me. Things have really changed alot.
Also, when I was 14 year old there was a girl that I had known for a while through another friend.. We didn't know each other that well though. I tried making eye contact, but she always started blushing and turned away. She always became really nervous whenever we were close to eachother..
She and a couple of friends came into my classroom one time after class. I was playing cards with two of my classmates. She sat on the table next to me.. I remember she took my right hand which previously rested on the table, up from the table and caressed it. She told me that I had long fingernails (yeah I know I'm lazy, but I don't like having very short fingernails either). I clearly recall her looking really nervous. I freaked out and completely froze.
It sounds so surreal, doesn't it....
Does this even fit the topic?
If not just ignore me.
_________________ To err is human; to forgive is divine..
well supposedly. She did "supposedly" like me, but she called me "slow steppin" and said she hated guys like that. I wasn't even sure she liked me I thought I was the ugliest being in the universe like I do now. Needless to say ever since then she probably thought I was not worth anything.
I don't think that a girl has ever been interested in me. I'm not quite sure what I would do, if someone did like me.
yeah I don't think that last girl didn't like me either it may have really just been all in my mind. She didn't even call me a slow stepper I THINK I just overheard it in the convo.
Joined: May 22, 2008 Posts: 10 Location: Oklahoma City, OK
Posted: Tue Nov 11, 2008 6:50 am Post subject:
I dont know what to say, except that I have always had the same problems. So many women that something could have happend with them. In the end I get to nervous and awkward to even look them in the eye or talk to them. Being a bit drunk tends to help. But it seems like the alcohol doesnt effect me like others. No matter how drunk I get, I'm still fully aware of everything around me, including my own nervousness, just dulled a bit. Sorry I couldnt be of help, if I ever figure it out, I'll let ya know. Heh.
I met this girl on myspace and we talked a little bit on there. She gave me her number to text her but I told her that I didn't have a cell phone. She told me to call her but I told her that I was really shy and had trouble calling people. So out of the kindness in her heart she called me so that I would get use to talking to her and not be to shy to call. It worked but after a while I began to worry that I was going to get hurt and quit talking to her.
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