Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2005 12:33 am Post subject: made an ass of myself (again)
Today, I had a meeting; no big deal. I didn't have to talk, that I was aware of. Really psyched myself up for this," no reason to be nervous". Then, as soon as I walked in the door, it hit me instantly. I couldn't speak properly, even say hello properly. Then, they held this draw for these really cool prizes, and I prayed they wouldn't dare call my name out, cause I would have to walk up to the front to claim my stupid prize. I was so obviously nervous as the names were called, holy shit, I felt like a freak . Then, I left last, so I didn't have to say goodbye to everybody. Kind of funny now, cause the prizes were really cool, but I would have done anything NOT to win one. Am I a dork, or what?????????????
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Posted: Thu Mar 24, 2005 1:10 am Post subject:
haha oh dear, i feel ya. one time i went to a bingo night at my college and i didn't realize it was going to be so crowded. There were different ways to play and alot of people didn't know how to play and they would yell out "bingo" when it was impossible and people would boo them. one girl turned beat red and everyone was laughing at her because of it. i felt like a chicken that realized it was on a chicken finger farm...
i was purposefully skipping the ones that i had on my card so that i wouldn't win. everytime i got even close my heart would race because i was there with a friend and i thought she would catch on to what i was doing or think i was being careless. if you won, you could win anywhere from $25-$100
so you're deffinately not alone! needless to say, you won't catch me at another bingo game
Oh man, back in high school I got an academic award. They are usually all presented on the same day in front of the entire school. They give out around 15 each year. This was just when my anxiety was all starting to come to surface. I actually missed the awards day because it was the same week my anxiety kicked in. So a few weeks went by after I went back to school. Every week the entire school meets in the auditorium and every week I would think they were going to present mine. Then finally someone told me they were going to give it to me that week. Knowing made it ten times worse. I sat there, my heart started racing, and I felt all flushed and shaky. Finally they called me up in front of the ENTIRE school. It was hell. Luckily I made it there and back with no incident. I had some friends cheering me on which helped a bit. There is nothing I fear more than standing in front of a crowd (small or large). You're definitely not a dork.
Yep, I would of reacted the same too!!!.....lol when I was at school you found out in advance if you were getting an award for good progress or whatever and utimately those were always my days off school....lol....
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. Then, I left last, so I didn't have to say goodbye to everybody. Kind of funny now, cause the prizes were really cool, but I would have done anything NOT to win one. 
Am I a dork, or what?????????????
needless to say, you won't catch me at another bingo game
