How much I have changed!

toeknee · Posted: Wed May 26, 2004 9:06 am Post subject: How much I have changed!

I was at the gym last night and when I got home I was taking out my clothes out of my bag when I noticed one of my formal shoes that I wear a lot was missing. I was all ready to surrender it for fear of causing a fuss and allowing myself to feel great shame for not doing anything. My mum saw I was in a panic looking for something but I didn't want to let on and worry her. But I thought to myself I have every right to go back today to the gym and ask at reception if they have ahd a left footed shoe handed in. Many years ago I would simply have written it off and done nothing about it, and I would never have spoken up if I had been short changed or if they out something in my food I didn't like, but now I do.
So I am going to go there today and ask if it has been found. Of course there is the risk that it may have been taken but then I can always get another pair. The point is I'm going to try and challenge myself a bit more.
And you all should too, as we all have the right to speak out when we have been short changed or if anything bad happens to us!
I just wanted to share that with you all!

scardecat · Guest

Good for you! Very Happy

Feels good dosnt it. I think it's always such an accomplihment and a building experience when we allow ourselves to do what many others seem to do just so easly. We are entitled to everything life has to offer, and I hope you continue on your good path... hope it went well Smile

.......... Im still a big scardecat.....(at my age Rolling Eyes

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toeknee · Posted: Wed Jun 02, 2004 1:09 pm Post subject:

Hi scaredecat

Well I got my shoe back and I was so happy! Because years ago I would have been sad about it feeling as though it was out of my control and I could have done nothing more than surrender it and but new shoes but why should i?
My eye contact has come back and I am now better at making eye contact at girls in clubs and bars and there is less fear because I had a relapse in confidence but my confidence has come back in this area.
I was at the bar saturday night and I saw this really cute Chinese girl and I could not take my eyes off her and I'm sure she was looking too but even though I never did anything I'm still proud of myself!