am i the only 1??

scaryfairy · Posted: Wed Jun 08, 2005 7:13 pm Post subject: hehe

erm im still getting the weird feelings. I really freaked myself out about it the other day and did not know what to do with myself. I felt so helpless, I just wanted it to end, I even thought about asking my mum 2 drive me to some kind of hospital to gte help because I know these weird feelings and thoughts aren't right and the fact I obsess over them isnt right. I always question whether im alive and im always freakin out about the fact i am alive and living. Lol its weird, I think it is too. I just feel like a zombie, helpless over whats going on in my head and around me! boo hoo

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fiona · Posted: Wed Jun 08, 2005 9:01 pm Post subject:

Hi Scary I think stuff like this too, I often wonder what's the point in being here when life is full of pain then you die Confused

It's because I am depressed and am all negetive

scaryfairy · Posted: Sat Jun 11, 2005 8:44 pm Post subject:

so is this weird feeling im having due to depression?

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Greenade · Posted: Sat Jun 11, 2005 8:59 pm Post subject:

I don't know if it is depression that causes these thoughts.....but i am always having similar thoughts....

I don't know if its because i am just lonely, but i found myself today in my garden thinking "what is the point of looking at that tree if there is no one to see it with me" Its as if there is no point to me existing and that there isn't a reason for seeing anything......like as if i'm not allowed to enjoy anything so why bother ???

I'm sounding weird now....... i just can't seem to explain now i come to write it down, iv'e gone blank... Confused

Adrian

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Scottish_Player · Posted: Sat Jun 11, 2005 9:12 pm Post subject:

Rockbox · Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2005 9:07 pm Post subject:

I often think im in the trueman show film, not because i have a big head but because i feel so low i can't work out what life is all about.I often think people are just actors and im in some kind of gameshow where i am the joke.

I suffer from paranoia and think you may too, it's a horrible thing to experience and i hope you get through it dude.

good luck!

scaryfairy · Posted: Sat Jul 09, 2005 5:26 pm Post subject: catch up

hmmm, catch up.
i spose my forts r kinda gettin better, ish?
il have all these weird, depressin, negative thoughts 4 a few days, n then theyl pass, n then come back again. At the moment while ritin this i feel fine n overly happy 4 sum reason, lol, which is good, spose im just tryna keep myself happy so my stupid neg feelings dnt come bk Laughing

n e ways, ows every1 else doin?
scary fairy x x x

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Gentlewind · Posted: Sat Jul 09, 2005 10:38 pm Post subject: Strange Thoughts

I find myself asking the same kind of questions, but believe it would be much sadder to not ask myself any questions at all. I ask myself why I can't just be happy like everyone else. I want to know if there is freedom from anxiety. The questions aren't unusual and, I think, they're important questions to ask. It means you're introspective enough to ask deeper and more meaningful questions. Personally, I think it means you're a more creative entity than others, and creative people ask a lot of themselves.

But I also know that I ask the morbid, sad questions when I'm steeped in depression. I get depressed when I deny my anger and when my sleep is filled with nightmares and "wall-to-wall" dreams. There is an old saying that goes something like this, "tiredness breeds cowardness." I become uneasy and out of balance without a decent night sleep. I occasionally use OTC sleep-aid medications if I'm aggitated and I try to stay away from caffeine at night. Recently, I've been taking St. John's Wort (I don't take any prescritpions it interacts with negatively). My sleep QUALITY has improved tremendously, and my day to day interactions seem...normal.

Karen

Sue · Posted: Mon Jul 25, 2005 7:03 pm Post subject:

i dont know if im the only person that feels this but i always get freaked out when i realise i have to control my breathing. when im trying to sleep and hear my own breathing im like "oh my god if i stop breathing il die" and that sounds quite strange but 4 me thats what happens. i find it hard not to think about it.

black_mamba · Posted: Mon Jul 25, 2005 7:16 pm Post subject:

Sue I get that too, when I try to consciously control my breathing (like when I'm attempting a relaxation technique) I freak out and it becomes so laboured!

Horrible. Laughing