Joined: Jul 10, 2005 Posts: 18 Location: United States of America
Posted: Sun Jul 10, 2005 7:58 am Post subject:
In the begining I thought I was going insane Id look in the mirror and wouldnt be able to reconize myself that scared the hell out of me . But eventualy it got less severe . Hope that helps .
i used to have more anxiety attacks then panick attacks. I never thought i was going to die...well..not exactly. I never thought i was going to die of like...a heart attack as its meant to be for a panick attack..
anyway
i used to get them at school more than anywhere..
itd start with just paranoid thoughts "those people over there are talking about me" "why are my friends whispering like that, they must hate me" which would then develop into "they never involve me in anything, im pathetic and useless, im just the one that hangs around" to complete nonsense, i'd be breathing really heavily, no matter how much i breathed i couldnt get any air to my lungs, or so it seemed. Id be fidgiting..like looking around me constantly, my vision would be going black, i'd see these like...creatures almost (i think its because im near fainting at this point) which like..crawled along the ground..and i could feel them all over me. By then i'd be screaming or crying..
I wouldnt let any one touch me..i'd be curled up in a ball, preferably a corner..i wouldnt have the faintest clue where i was, or who was there..like i'd see them but not recognise them.
My friend tried to touch me once, to hug me and stop me crying...i hit out at her because i thought she was going to.like..i dunno kill me or something..i was really close to breaking her nose, but i just missed and hit the side of her face really hard..
After a while they just passed, my vision would begin to grow normal and memories of who my mates were, and that i was at school would come back...
id be shaky for ages, but it'd calm down
so..uh yeh. thats my story. I used to have them regularly, but i havent had such a large scale one for almsot a year. I still have small ones, but nothing that really causes a problem.
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Nobody hears above this noise
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Joined: Jul 07, 2005 Posts: 922 Location: United Kingdom
Posted: Sun Jul 10, 2005 4:32 pm Post subject:
The worst panic attack I ever had was when I was about 16, I had been talked into going to a club with the guy I was sorta dating at the time. We went into a bar and I went to the toilets and when I came back he had bought me a drink, me being a stupid kid thought I could trust him to buy me a drink because he'd been seeing me for like over two months, but I'm 100% sure now that he slipped something in my drink. After we went to the club it really hit me and I started flipping out, and I hadn't had hardly anything to drink. I thought my heart was gonna beat out of my chest, I was nearly throwing up, I couldn't walk. I was crying too, because I started having flash backs of when I was attacked by a different ex when I was 14. That was the worst panic attack I have ever had. I'm pretty sure he must have slipped me something that brought on a panic attack that severe for no reason.
Joined: Mar 23, 2005 Posts: 144 Location: Australia
Posted: Mon Jul 11, 2005 5:03 am Post subject:
i have had two really bad panic attacks, both in public places. once while shopping with my friends, and the other in class.
the one in class happened because there was only one seat left where i could sit inbetween my friend and a girl i really wanted to avoid, because she was so popular and bitchy i thought she would try to move if i sat next to her. so while everyone was sitting down i was still standing trying to get my friend to sit next to her so i could sit inbetween both of my friends instead (confusing i know). when i finally sat down i got a full blown panic attack. feeling my heart beat so fast, getting all sweaty and shaking. feeling like my head was getting some kind of really hot liquid poured over it and like bugs were eating and crawling all over me. it was awful. i just grabbed my pen and started attacking my book with it to try and calm myself down. my book was wrecked.. haha. but thankfuly nobody really noticed me except one of my friends.
when i was shopping with my friends they wanted to go look in a bra shop. so they all strolled in and left me in the main walkway with all these people walking around me and bumping into me. i ran inside after them and it happened. same thing that happened in the class room except i had nothing to do, so i was left standing alone, freaking out.
after hearing other peoples stories.. i feel very lucky i havnt needed to go to hospital before. your all really strong.
My last panic attack was my most severe, I was in some club, alone, started to feel the panic, ran out, actively dodging people and hid outside in a darkened parking lot, hyperventilating and generally making my situation worse.
Joined: Jun 29, 2005 Posts: 35 Location: United Kingdom
Posted: Tue Jul 19, 2005 12:58 am Post subject:
My panic attacks get so bad I've been known to faint and vomit from it on several occasions :s
I feel like I need to run away but I don't know where I'm running to sort of deal. And yes I know what you mean by going insane. Like you just can't contain yourself any longer if you can't get away from the situation.
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