Self harm

black_mamba · Posted: Tue Jul 12, 2005 3:25 pm Post subject:

I think social phobia is a form of mental self harm.

But yeah, physical self harm can temporarily relieve some anger.

I tried stopping myself from 'indulging' in it recently but I think that made me brush some emotions under the carpet. I erupted today when I punched a desk with my knuckles.

Its no good, I need to change the way I deal with things that upset me rather than simply trying to hide it from other people. *sigh*

blue · Posted: Tue Jul 12, 2005 4:02 pm Post subject:

when i embaress myself or have a bad experience i harm myself usually with a knife on the top of my arm or somewere i think it will go unnoticed it hurts like hell but it makes me feel so much better. Embarassed

thugaveli · Posted: Tue Jul 12, 2005 7:28 pm Post subject:

I could easily slash my arms up with all the stress that builds up inside me but i picture all the scars it would leave and how nasty looking it would be

I just take my stress out on exercise or the punch bag!

Its so easily done though self halm, sometimes theres no alternative than to halm yourself, theres times where i just feel like being beat up it just sounds crazy but...... oh well Crying or Very sad

SuicidalChick · Posted: Wed Jul 13, 2005 7:04 am Post subject:

I use to self harm by cutting my arms with a knife,but for some reason i just stopped.

Whenever i embarass myself in social situations i tend to punish myself mentally,which is just as bad because it creates a cycle that just carries on. I tell myself how stupid i am and how people must think im totally pathetic Embarassed

believesomething · Posted: Wed Jul 13, 2005 7:40 am Post subject:

Any of the (usually free) lifeline / suicide / etc phone help-lines will gladly take a call from anyone considering harming themselves, in any fashion.

These lines are almost always staffed by caring, compassionate people, who are usually volunteers (in Australia, if not everywhere), and who are very good at listening to anyone in any state. It doesn't matter how much or little you have to say.

I know it means making a phone call, and that can be a challenge to many. I know it means talking to a stranger too. But when things are bad enough to hurt yourself, please consider making the call first. You'll thank yourself later, when you're out of the moment and things aren't quite so bad.

blubs · Posted: Wed Jul 13, 2005 9:22 am Post subject:

Hi Everyone
I'm really shocked by this topic Shocked

I don't have any experience of this...so maybe I shouldn't comment on it?
Except that it makes me feel so sad that any of you would harm yourselves in that way Crying or Very sad

Is it the only way you have found to get rid of all your negative emotions?
sometimes I get so frustrated and feel my emotions building up. I get angry and feel like I could smash things up. When I feel like this...all I can do is go running....until I'm too physically tired to feel that way.
Maybe its different Confused

....but I wish you could find other ways to get your emotions down to a bearable level.
blubsx

despise · Posted: Wed Jul 13, 2005 9:24 am Post subject:

i used to self harm...im not sure what made me stop. i used to cut myself every second night, if not, then more. then i just stopped. i noticed a huge change in my emotions, almost instantly. i would always be more angry and alot more sensitive. i would always have arguments with my family, which would end in tears - not only from me but them aswell. it wasnt fair to bring them down with me so i tried cutting again, and it just felt so wrong. i could'nt do it anymore.
i know how much it makes you feel better at the time...but finding something else to take frustration out on is very important. i was staring at my legs last night for a very long time.. counting the scars and wondering if they would ever go away. i also had a dream that my brother came in and saw all the scars. i was so upset that he had found out and i was trying to cover them up but the damage was already done. i really hurt him. i know it was only a dream. but it scared me alot.
scares are a perminant reminder of the pain we once felt. they will never go away, but the pain will.
if you really truly are wanting to stop and change how you release anger, try some of the suggestions stated above, like screaming into a pillow, getting a punching bag or just simply punching your mattress.
to those who are unwilling to change and stop harming themselves, you will feel much better about yourself, you will get a feeling of achieving something great. because it really is.

Faded · Posted: Wed Jul 13, 2005 10:25 am Post subject:

ya, same here i self harm as well!

i started to cut at the age 14, i cudnt deal with my emotions ,filled with frustration n' anger .. the best way 4 me to feel better was to cut my wrist! i use a razer! Rolling Eyes

rite now during the summer holiday i started to cut less cuz my mum saw my wrist filled with scars at the swimming pool Embarassed

Well ya my mum saw my wrist before tht when i was sleeping .. i used to always wear long sleeved t-shirts .. i was aware of anyone noticing my bizarre actions! She told me how stupid i am to act like a mule!! Crying or Very sad

I always think of cutting back .. cuz yet i cant deal my emotions! I feel like bursting out! Embarassed

ColdFury · Posted: Thu Jul 14, 2005 4:30 am Post subject:

Fredscarecrow · Advanced User Joined: Dec 11, 2004 Posts: 423

my arms and legs are covered with the scars i gained. Theyre mostly pretty small..ones that i did before an anxiety attack with needles, scissors and my nails. I have a large one on the top of my right arm, on the bicep when i just got a pair of scissors and stabbed myself. I never used to make them bleed badly, just until the skin was raw. I have some on my legs too, from when i used to be scared of people seeing them.
i'm clumsy, so i used to tell people i just fell over ..no idea if they believe me.
I dont do it any more, i simply found that, yes it was relieving at the time, but the next day it just added physical pain on top of the mental one. I used to see it as a way to punish myself for being the way i was. I've stopped simply because everytime i picked up something sharp, id force myself to put it down. after a while it worked

Please dont hurt yourself, i know how tempting it can be, how tempting suicide can be, but how will you ever know if you can beat this if you let go now? Hurting yourself just causes more problems.
xxx

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