how many here have ocd also?

Isawthelight · Newbie User Joined: Aug 25, 2005 Posts: 14

i haven't been clinically diagnosed, but im almost positive they would tell me i have SP and OCD. i fear people in most situations, and i check things several times before having that satisfied feeling that something is finally locked or turned off. i constantly beat myself up after interactions with others and think i could have handled that situation better or made myself appear more intelligent, etc. My brother is a paranoid schizophrenic and my dad had some anxieties in his life although he was popular and successful in spite of it. maybe it was just in the cards for me to have my own shitty hand to play with.

nerdgirl178 · Posted: Sat Aug 27, 2005 1:43 am Post subject:

Ihave never been diagnosed with OCD but I am sure I have it. I have an obsession with numbers and letters. If I see a "bad" number I would do anything to cover it so I won't look at it. I add up numbers constantly, its so exhausting. I wish I was a genius in Math, like maybe I should learn Calculus or something.

4myself · Posted: Sat Aug 27, 2005 1:46 am Post subject:

I think I might be borderline ocd, I find myself always wanting to wash my hands and take showers, I am working very hard to control it though.

daria · Posted: Sat Aug 27, 2005 5:11 am Post subject:

Well, here's another one,

I'm obsessed with lines, all kind of lines, the real ones and the ones I imagine. I don't like being touched by them, so sometimes is really unconfortable to walk when I see lines on the ground because I don't want to step on them.
I even wish the room I'm in to form a perfect cube, and I imagine a line from corner to corner and so on. It's really exhausting Mad

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black_mamba · Posted: Sat Aug 27, 2005 8:46 am Post subject:

Remus · Posted: Sat Aug 27, 2005 10:30 am Post subject:

I have a thing about even numbers

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Scottish_Player · Posted: Sat Aug 27, 2005 11:49 am Post subject:

I go through stages of OCD so iam a part timmer OCD Laughing

i go through stages of where everything has to be neat and perfect, everything has to be in order and so on and then one day it can all change and i dont care Rolling Eyes

but then it can come back just like that.

I also have the number thing, i need my television volume to end in a 1 or a 6 when i am watching it for example 21 or 26 or 31 or 36 and so on if its in between then something just dosent feel right. I have a habbit of reading car registration numbers and i must repeat them twice in my head, the list goes on and on but its just part of life for me now Very Happy

nerdgirl178 · Posted: Sat Aug 27, 2005 8:56 pm Post subject:

I do the same thing with car registration numbers, lol... we are so weird.

racheH · Posted: Sun Aug 28, 2005 10:13 am Post subject:

I go from one obsession to another several. Rolling Eyes

I had thoughts, ideas, images pop into my head which made me feel guilty and anxious because I didn't want them yet I could feel a kind of build up in my head which meant they were going to explode into my mind anyway. That was at about age four.

Then there came a desire to feel 'symmetrical'. If anything touched me I had to put pressure on the opposite side too. Because one side had been touched first, I had to touch the other side first the next time because one was an odd number. But the cycle had only been done once so I had to repeat it the opposite way round and keep going until it 'felt right', which didn't happen until I lost count and so wasn't aware of the imbalance any more. I've since only seen this compulsion described by one person on TV, which was a relief because I thought I was the only one. I don't suppose anyone here has that one too...?

Most of them have been mental complusions though, where I can't keep a certain topic off my mind. Sometimes they are things I'm interested in and
other times it's something I'm scared of, like being unhealthy. One in particular stands out where I'd avoid sunlight touching me for tear of skin damage. In a car I'd move about as much as possible to get out of it, for the whole journey. That one probaby caused me the most distress.

Most people seem to have at least one symptom, whether it bothers them or not. Many have little rituals for everday tasks. Everyone knows someone who likes to get dressed a certain way each time, for example. I wonder if when it takes over your life it's just a defence mechanism gone wrong. It gets worse for me when I feel I'm losing control anyway, and the way OCD people often talk of wanting things 'in order' or 'symmetrical' also makes it sound like a self-comforting reaction. Hmm...

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black_mamba · Posted: Sun Aug 28, 2005 10:38 am Post subject: