crazy thoughts make me wanna puke

Jess_19 · Guest

after the day ends i wanna explode knowing i wasnt myself today. i cant be myself knowing in a false sorta way that people wont like me.people already seem to hate me...whenever they try to approach me i shy away and answer with a few words i think are safe to say...but they dont understand they think this is me. they must think im a bitch. someone called me a bitch once cuz he got fed up trying to get my attention or talk to me and get me to talk. i cut some of skin in the beginning of the week. one side of my cheek i slashed and i bled.. everyone asks me how i am and how i got cut. i pretend it's nothing.. i'm such an idiot. but im so hurt and im suffering so much it's like im bleeding inside.

Tris · Posted: Thu Oct 07, 2004 11:37 pm Post subject:

people cut themselves to surface the pain, but dont do that, its only going to make things worse, ive never cut myself so i dont really know how your feeling im sorry

I always come off as a bitch too, its like a shield for us, but something we dont mean to do, it just happens that way.
I wish SP didnt exist i wish none of us had this problem, its gotta be one of the worst things to have, but we could get over it. i dont even know what im trying to say but i wanted to reply. so im just going to end it with that and i hope your feeling better.

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Tris

bluemoon · Posted: Fri Oct 08, 2004 12:09 am Post subject:

I have serious problems talking with people and a lot of people get turned off by the way i haltingly speak and the way i get really uncomfortable. i cut myself too and i understand how u feel. i wish i could get out something intelligent once in a awhile...SP sucks

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veryshygirl · Guest

I used to be really shy at school and got bullied because the other girls used to think I was just a snob who didn't want to bother with them but it was because I was afraid people wouldn't like Me!
Don't cut Yourself Hun!! I'll bet You're lovely and this thing is all in Your head!

slahive · Posted: Fri Oct 08, 2004 12:14 pm Post subject:

NO!!!!!!!!

Catch Twenty Two Words · Guest

Tie your hair back before you puke, stop bleeding on the inside, avoid sharp objects. *sigh...I don't know why I waste my time helping you morons.

Love,

Two Words

Jess_19 · Guest

i do appreciate all what yous had to say. it's so nice to know there ARE people out there who seem to care. but then again.. today was another day and it was more terrible than the day before. i'm so anxious and upset around people it's really too fucked up... im sorry to say but i always seem to lose hope and it can take me sometimes a while to get it back up. WHAT DO I DOOOOOO?!?!?!? Shocked

Guest · Posted: Sat Oct 09, 2004 12:48 pm Post subject:

A dog hopes for its master...to pop in,now and again...
And it has no choice.

It is like being dependant on our mind,to sway one way or the next.Happiness or Worry?.

People think about you here,who have survived scares,or who are not THAT bad off...whi've found enlightment some way.

Grab whatever is closest to you,in your life....What makes you smile,for even an instant.and hug it.

Jess_19 · Guest

if u have nuthin helpful to say then shut up for real u dick head u make me pissed
before when u said u were never coming back to these forums u freakin come back r u stupid? u're still here being a bitch. like u want to make shit with evrybody
get out my face twenty two words