Joined: Oct 08, 2004 Posts: 283 Location: Australia
Posted: Sun Apr 09, 2006 12:42 am Post subject:
I don't know if I was BDD I think it's safe to say I was legitimately ugly a over a year ago at 113kg and I couldn't even bear to look at myself in the mirror for fear of finding all the flaws. I basically ignored the fact that I was obese, but hated myself all the same not really accepting it.
37kg lost and I'm at a healthy weight but I still don't take good photos because my face is too short (hence it shows off my double chin). Also I store a lot of fat on my upper body in complete contrast to my lower body. So, rolls and back fat I have and always will have. No fun.
Anyway, realistically, I try not to fuss about this too much and get on with life. Solving weight issues etc. can help, but other than that you really have to work on your personality to overcome it. For example, I tend to be a very negative, avoidant type so I have still had no one ask me out while I have had family and friends say that I am attractive. Whereas I see plenty of happy people in relationships. Not all gorgeous either.
EDIT: I forgot to mention that I also tend to berate myself and my work so that when I do get something right or I am complimented, I feel like it's been such an achievement.
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Joined: Mar 10, 2006 Posts: 281 Location: sunderland
Posted: Sun Apr 09, 2006 12:42 am Post subject:
i dunno if i have BDD but my looks rule my life and i do have an eating disorder.
i avoid mirrors alot of the time or i get obsessed and check how i look in anythin reflective. i am extremely articulate about my apearence and will not let anyone see me if i feel mingin. im a bit like the beast out of beauty and the beast. i will hide. i am so self conscious about everything. it is very much an obsession.
i feel huge all of the time. really huge. i wear my pjs cos they r baggy so i dont feel as fat. my make up and hair have to b perfect and so does my nails, skin and clothes. i am not vain...this is a chore to me and the way i look rules my life.
at the moment i hate my appearence. i am generally unhappy but i loathe it.
Joined: Dec 18, 2005 Posts: 253 Location: Syd, Australia
Posted: Thu Apr 20, 2006 11:51 pm Post subject:
jojosparkles wrote:
i dunno if i have BDD but my looks rule my life and i do have an eating disorder.
i avoid mirrors alot of the time or i get obsessed and check how i look in anythin reflective. i am extremely articulate about my apearence and will not let anyone see me if i feel mingin. im a bit like the beast out of beauty and the beast. i will hide. i am so self conscious about everything. it is very much an obsession.
i feel huge all of the time. really huge. i wear my pjs cos they r baggy so i dont feel as fat. my make up and hair have to b perfect and so does my nails, skin and clothes. i am not vain...this is a chore to me and the way i look rules my life.
at the moment i hate my appearence. i am generally unhappy but i loathe it.
xxx
I understand how u feel and i think it sounds like u have BDD at least just a bit. I am obsessed with mirrors, i avoid them in public when others are around yet i check myself in anything reflective. My day begins with me lookin in the mirror, and the day is dictated by how i feel..whether i look acceptable, not on a whole but just in relation to a specific obsession of a thinig...ah im too embarassed to say.
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