Have you Ever Cut?

Descartes · Newbie User Joined: Jul 11, 2006 Posts: 15

Have you ever cut your wrist, arm, stomach, legs, or some other body part intentionally because of depression?

Toad · Posted: Sun Jul 16, 2006 4:29 am Post subject:

Yes, unfortunately I have and do cut my upper arm for various reasons, depression being one of them.

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Emma · Posted: Sun Jul 16, 2006 6:35 am Post subject:

Yes I do, but I don't think anyone cares, apparently it's a sign of being weak, and I guess I am

Meow · Posted: Sun Jul 16, 2006 7:35 am Post subject:

I do, but I used to do it a lot worse. My doctor said it's something about releasing chemicals that makes you feel better, so it's not stupid or a sign of weakness there's a chemical reason for it.

She said it's most common in young women who come from rough families. Hit the nail on the head with atleast.

Horatio · Posted: Sun Jul 16, 2006 7:50 am Post subject:

yes I used to, but things would get messy with the blood n all so I switched to dripping burning plastic on my arms instead which acheived the desired affect

it worked well at getting my mind off other things, letting physical pain take my mind off lonliness and rejection

Descartes · Newbie User Joined: Jul 11, 2006 Posts: 15

lost_and_broken · Newbie User Joined: Jul 16, 2006 Posts: 8

i have never cut myself, but i do (havent done it for a while) scratch the back of my hands and arms using something sharp like a pin or hair clip which has left scars. once i made a hole in my hand by picking the scap and then picking and scratching at the wound. sometimes i would spay on bodyspary and things like that on the scratchs to make it sting more. i have also done this 2 my legs and carved 'i want 2 die' on my leg.

this is the first time i have told this and no1 knows about this. if i ever scratchd my hand too much and it was obvious what i did i would but on my bandage which i have because i have weak wrists so i would put on a bandage and blame it on my wrist

Guest · Posted: Sun Jul 16, 2006 10:33 pm Post subject:

Yes I cut for several months, hiding my arms and stomach....I also gave myself bruises on my thighs and arms so I was a real mess for a while there. I wasn't abused, I mean my dad had a temper and would yell alot, but it's not like we were beaten up. The reason I cut was because of SA. When I felt as though I failed in a social situation I would run up to my room and get the pushpins out and you know, punish myself, I suppose. It released all that ANGER and self hatred that I don't know how to deal with. Actually, I'm still not sure how most people deal with anger, or maybe they just have less anger than me? I don't know.

Anyway, it is an addiction. A terrible habit. And the more you let it go and don't get help the worse it is going to get. The deeper you'll cut. The worse you'll feel. It offers only a temporary euphoria.

Cutting is hard for "regular" people to understand. They almost always think you want to ***** when it's usually the opposite. In fact, the whole time I dealt with this my father sort of pretended nothing was wrong and I realized the whole situation scared the crap out of him.
So I stopped injuring myself altogether. (with the help of professionals and medication) Haven't done it in more than two months! And now the urges to do it are decreasing so the battle isn't half as hard.

feeltherage · Posted: Mon Jul 17, 2006 12:58 am Post subject: I have

I sometimes injur myself, more so out of anger than depression. When I was in high school I would carve designs and things into my arms. I havent cut myself in a while. The last time I cut myself I was really angry and depressed. It was 2 or so years ago. I chopped my left palm with a cleaver. I pulled back at the last moment and only got about 1/4th of my palm. Otherwise I would probably not be able to play guitar which I love so much, or do other things.

Soon after I cut my hand I felt like I had taken a powerful drug and in the excitement of that moment I smeared my face and hands with blood then I laid down. Its pretty fucking stupid but thats what happend. My mother lived next door and would just walk in when she came to visit. I was so ashamed when my mother came into the kitchen and seen me like that, she freaked out. She thought I was dead. Now I try to use any kind of pain that does not involve cutting with a blade.

I guess this is more of a get this off my chest than a reply to a post.

loucat · Posted: Tue Jul 25, 2006 3:54 pm Post subject:

i used to cut in my teens,my arms legs and stomach, also did my wrists which wasn't pleasant. ive got the scars still.
Cutting was strangely addictive for me and i used to be so preoccupied with hurting myself, it was really weird.
thankfully i don't do it these days even when i'm having a bad patch. I can't recall what really made me stop, must have been when i started taking regular medication and had to see a psychiatrist for a bit