an uninteresting introduction/story about SA

sphericalmind

Hi everyone, I'm kinda new here and have only posted once as you can probably see. Anyway, I have suffered from SA and depression for some years now. I'm halfway through highschool and things definately don't seem to be getting better. I can easily count the times i've been out with friends. I'm still kind of afraid to get a job or do anything. I'm extremely shy and have always been known as the guy who doesn't talk. I've never been in a real relationship and it just kills me because almost every person I've known have been and it makes me lonely.

I met this girl in school and we became friends and started hanging out which filled me with hope. I couldn't have been more wrong thinking that there would actually be a chance that she might like me. I've been so depressed after that. I've been seeing a counsellor for six months and I've been taking antidepressants which I don't think make much of a difference because I feel like I'm still the same. Hopefully, I'm wrong. School will start again soon and I really don't feel like going back.

Sorry if it's quite long and uninteresting but I just had to let it out and share my story because I don't know what to do anymore. My whole point is not to ask for sympathy but to simply see if there are actually people out there I could relate to or talk to. So... yeah, thanks for taking the time to read.

Reholla · Posted: Wed Aug 09, 2006 3:54 am Post subject:

Hey there! Well, just to let you know, youre not a lone! And I'm glad you found this site. It helps, I try not to spend too much time on it, but its good to go to if you need to relate to others.

The bad thing about SA is you feel like youre so alone, when really there are a lot of people out there struggling, and its so possible to recover. I was also quiet growing up, then in like 4th grade on I was actually outgoing. I thought I overcame my shyness, but really I was just covering it up. Like my last year in HS my anxiety came full swing, having panic attacks, etc. I was litterally housebound, and didnt want to be with friends which was really weird for me. Anyway, you may feel like you can't recover. I know I was completely hopeless. But if you want to change, you really have to think you can. What drove me was that I didnt want to live life like this anymore, so I did everything possible.

Take a look at this website: www.stresscenter.com

Really find out why you have anxiety, look up why you are feeling this way. Look up social anxiety, and understand it. I would suggest reading some books on it.

Some other things that will help are eating well and exercising often. I know SA is a big problem and you feel like you need to do something drastic, but gradual change is how you recover. It took time to develop it, so its gonna take time to recover. Be patient with yourself, and live in the moment. I hope this helps you

sphericalmind · Posted: Wed Aug 09, 2006 5:43 am Post subject:

thanks a lot for all the advice Reholla. It really helped me and gave me hope. I'm glad you've found lots of ways to recover and never gave up or something like that. I'm definitely going to try as much as I can for a possible recovery and try different things. I'm glad there are people out there I can relate to.

guest01 · Guest

good point reholla

pinkputter · Intermediate User Joined: Aug 09, 2006 Posts: 129