Joined: Jan 27, 2006 Posts: 143 Location: Sydney, Australia
Posted: Fri Aug 11, 2006 3:57 am Post subject: A returning SP sufferer who never formally introduced himsel
Before i start off, i'd like to say i'm more then happy to be a part of these forums again. I did come on around 5 months ago or so, but i hardly posted and just gave up . . . . i know, wrong move, but still i plan on stayin her for as long as i can. Ok now i'll tell a bit about myself (sorry . . . . i know i'm really boring and i know i drone on a li'll too much).
I'm 16, from Sydney Australia, and i would say i've suffered SP since i was around ten . . . . although i think i showed signs since i was little. I kinda grew up like a bit of slow kid who couldn't really adapt to my surroundings, so makin friends even as early as pre school was impossible, so i just always been looked upon as the wierd kid. As i got into primary i basically felt very excluded that i began to become an attention seeker, class clown, in order to get attention. I made friends this way . . . but not the right ones , and i was basically only there for people to let them laugh at me . So then as soon as i started a new year in primary as a ten year old . . . . . yep startin new years was always hard for me at school . . . i basically told myself from now on i'd keep quiet and stop acting like an idiot . . . coz i didn't want attention anymore, coz all i got was the wrong attention. I basically spent the rest of primary taggin along behind a bunch of nerds, and yet despite how quiet, and unnoticeable i had become . . . . the past couldn't be forgotten by my peers and it just really hurt me.
The start of highscool was shit, i completely ditched my nerd group i tagged along with and started tryin to hang with the populars . . . . . yeah for a year i did that, and got no respect what so ever, i was a joke . . . . no matter what i could'nt be like them, and they were jerks on top of it anyways.
Within the few years in the past towards today, i can say i've been to a psychologist . . . . . no help what so ever! . . . . a group therapy . . . . didn't meet any SP suffers. I have never been to a party in highschool, never had a party of my own, still a virgin, still havn't kissed, never got drunk, never been high, and yeah i had one gf . . . . who unfortunately lives distant, and hardly ever see's me, but she knew about my problem, and i think she wants me to get help.
Interests wise i enjoy extreme sports like bmxin, and thats about it . . . . but i did use to drum, and i can only say i have one best friend, and then only aquaintences . . . so please private message me or add me to msn if thats possible, i would love to talk! Thanks for readin, i hope i can help some of you sufferers too!
You cannot post new topics in this forum You cannot reply to topics in this forum You cannot edit your posts in this forum You cannot delete your posts in this forum You cannot vote in polls in this forum
87 guests
32 members
Forum FAQ
Search
Profile
Private messages
Log in
i know, wrong move, but still i plan on stayin her for as long as i can. Ok now i'll tell a bit about myself (sorry . . . . i know i'm really boring 
and i know i drone on a li'll too much).
. . . i basically told myself from now on i'd keep quiet and stop acting like an idiot . . . coz i didn't want attention anymore, coz all i got was the wrong attention. I basically spent the rest of primary taggin along behind a bunch of nerds, and yet despite how quiet, and unnoticeable i had become . . . . the past couldn't be forgotten by my peers and it just really hurt me.
