Hey what's up y'all

Lyricaljust · Posted: Tue Aug 15, 2006 4:30 am Post subject: Hey what's up y'all

This is cool I didn't know that this website existed until now.. well I'm gonna speak my mind..

My problem is well ever since I moved here to Kansas City back in 1997' from St. Louis I've just been a real quiet type of person. I was just a kid back then and now I'm 20 years old. I do have plenty of friends well I guess you can call them friends but I think of them more as aquaintances because from the fact that as far as a real in depth relationship with a person I just don't have that.. I've always felt like everyone was in this box flowing with the world and I was the one always outside if that makes any sense. So the thing is now since I've lived with this image of "quiet guy" and people thinking I'm so shy it stresses me out it's like.. I'll see a girl that I want to get to know and she could walk by me and I can't even say Hi or hello. I feel like this image has been planted so heavily on top of me that now it's just can it actually break? Back when I was 14 I found a vent for all my feelings in writing and that's what I did with my high school years got up on stage and did talent shows to speak my mind to all the people and let them all know how I feel. I got pretty well known from it the whole school by the time I graduated pretty much knew who I was. It's just when it comes to a individual and me it's just hard for me to speak my mind.. all I find is silence.. it's like I'm on the opposite of this wall and I've tried so long to knock it down but it just doesn't.. I'm pretty much a loner I think.. I spend everyday pretty much by myself at home in my room or reading a book somewhere.. not really like alot of people always out doing things with people etc. which makes me feel alone.. but in the back of my mind I just have the thought that I have to go on maybe one day things will be different.. I know that I've made HUGE progress since the days of 1997'.. but still some things.. just keep stressing me out.. well thanks for reading.