A relief to know that I’m not alone

Marko · Guest

I recently stumbled across this forum and all of the problems that I struggle with every day so many of you seem to have too. It’s quite a relief to know that I’m not alone and that it is a recognised condition with treatments. I have always tried to just get by each day but there seem quite a few options to help.

I absolutely cannot make close friends. I can only get as far as acquaintances and no further so I’m always very lonely. I’ve moved 5 times in the last year and a half to start again hoping ‘this time it will be different’ but I create the same situation every time. The loneliness is affecting me very badly, and often I resort to cutting myself to cope with it.

In social situations I worry I will say something stupid and people will laugh or that they don’t like me. Even a question like “how was your weekend” often makes me blush and uncomfortable since someone is asking about my personal life. Towards the end of school I just came in for lessons and went straight home gain talking to nobody. I’m terribly closed and private which gives the impression I am a cold person. Even waiting for someone in a public place, being in a shop and dealing with a shop assistant, or paying for something makes me very anxious and worried.

Time to do some reading on here...

LemonKiss · Newbie User Joined: Oct 14, 2005 Posts: 76

Hello. Would you like to be my friend? My screen name for aol instant messenger is Antarctica77. My e-mail address is fishies_stars@yahoo.com We seem so similar and why should we have to suffer alone?

I am also private, blush when someone asks how my weekend was, feel really nervous paying for things or in waiting rooms. And I can't seem to make close friends.

I wish we didn't have to feel so afraid to live.

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